Feb 28, 2005 00:43
Ludington is already having its effect on me, and I've only been here since Saturday night. Its nice not having to deal with anything, but there are only so many times I can think of showtunes to download or read everyone's away messages. I start dance tomorrow, so that'll be nice for the week.
The Lova was here yesterday, but I didn't even come close to seeing her enough. I want to make it to Chicago this week but I don't know if I'll be able to!
I'm really missing David...he's in Miami for Alternative Spring Break, teaching inner-city high school students. What a guy. We've spent pretty much every day together (and night) since Jan. 14th, so its pretty rough getting used to not being with him, but this coming Sunday will be worth it!
Jason and I went to get appetizers at the Brewery tonight before heading out to the Lake for dinner with the family...I would have rather stayed at the Brewery. I've become so disgusted with and sick of my dad and the way he acts that I've pretty much given up on any hope of our family working out. The guilt trip he lays on us when we go out there is unbearable. "Its nice of you guys to finally come out, I hope to see you more." Jesus Christ dad, YOU'RE the one who gave up on family life, deciding to focus on business all the time. You're the one who never contributed to our upbringing. Never picked us up, never took us places, never really talked to us. HFJKHFDFJKHKJWRHKJWRHRKFJH. Its so weird and confusing, because as much as I hate him sometimes, I wish I didn't at all. This summer is going to be an interesting one, I'm waiting to see how he acts when David is there. Poor mommy:(
Anyways, now that you all know the Betka secrets, I think its time for me to bust out to starland. Sweet dreams everyone! Sorry about the shitty update, disregard everything you read because I'll probably not mean any of it tomorrow (except the David part.)