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Sometines I swear I just do it to piss him off. And I know what I'm doing it when I'm doing it I just can't stop myself. He likes to make me angry and push me down and I like to let him know that I could be with anyone I want. It's not the healthiest of things and I feel like I'm breaking down. But then when I'm just about to give up something happens and I release back into the feelings I have for him. I just don't know how much longer I can keep ripping this wound open then sealing it back up, eventually we'll run out of thread. I'm so tired but I'm happy too. It's ridiculous I am this unusual mix of emotions I think I might be sick...