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[dancer2288]

How  come parents always chose times when you're in tears for no good reason to give you lectures about stuff?  Yeah, I got in a fight with mum (again) today...well it wasn't really a fight more just a disaggreement (ok maybe fight and disagreement to most people are pretty much the same thing but this was different I just can't put what it actually was into the right words).  I was just starting "Donnie Darko" in Izzie's room (because it was a VHS and the only VHS player is attached to the television that's in Izzie's room) and Izzie came in and asked me to check what was on t.v. so I did.  She didn't want to watch "Donnie Darko," but "Numbers" happened to be on.  She wanted to watch "Numbers" and I wanted to watch "Donnie Darko" because it's due back at the library in 3 days and I work every single one of the days until it's due (so this was my last chance).  I was immature, I admit, and annoyed Izzie and she walked out and told mum, at this point I was feeling crappy for being rude enough to Izzie.  Then mum called me downstairs and we had a fight about taking over Izzie's room (stupid, I know).  Fight went no where, it ended with me randomly breaking into tears fo rno good reason.  Meanwhile, mum's talking about to Snicket.  When she finally asked me what was wrong, I said I didn't know, but I thought maybe it was because of a combination of Ben and Varick leaving today, and my job driving me around the bend.  Then she decided to give me a lecture about how people are worse off than me so I shouldn't complain about my job and make it sound like I have it worse than everybody.  Okay, I understand that people have it worse than me but...she picked the complete wrong time to lecture me.  Then I went upstairs and found that my sister had left the Monopoly game on my bed (since she played Monopoly in my room because I was in her room which wasn't a problem, but I would've liked to at least have the Monopoly game picked up) so I delivered it to her room, a little annoyed and prepared to be immature and make it known that I was annoyed that it was in my room still...well, I sort of spilled all the Monopoly pieces on the floor, by accident, I totally didn't want that to happen and I broke into tears (again...surprise, eh?) and Izzie sort of put aside the fact that I treated her like crap and gave me a hug and told me everything's going to be alright.  God, I feel special having a sister like her, but at the same time, I still feel crappy because after her treating her like crap she came back with a big hug and a lot of greatly needed support without the lecturing. So, what was going to be a stupid get mad and treat Izzie crappily again thing turned into probably the best thing that happened in the past 2 hours.   It also seems like my mum and I can't even make up after a fight without getting into another fight.  I went downstairs after that and apologized for everything.  She asked me why I was crying (again) and I said I didn't know, she blamed it on hormones and then lectured me again about how I shouldn't complain about my job.  Again she picked the wrong time to lecture me, so I just left the room.  Also, how is it that whenever I get in fights with my parents it's always at the time when I can't really call any of my friends?  It seemed like everybody I usually call in cases like this are on vacation, just moved away, or is working? But whenever they are here I'm fine and not in need of calling them...yeah...I guess you call it Murphy's Law.  But anyways, I'm still randomly bursting into tears right now, but I'm going to be fine...I hope...I've just had a hard summer and I think it's all catching up to me...

On another note: I got my learner's permit and am now learning how to drive (yay!).  Thought I'd add one happy thing to this post because it's completely lacking in happiness...but oh well...