Trial and Error
The thing that I think that has been the hardest for me as a parent, is dealing with trial and error when it comes to issues of Mina's health or comfort.
I know that the body isn't always so much of a predictable science. I know from my own experience, that it takes paying attention, trying things out, observation and time sometimes to get an answer. I still don't have answers to some of the strange ailments I've had in life. You heal and move on.
But doing this with my child while she is crying in pain (or sleep deprived, or starving) - it is something I hate more than anything I've ever hated before. Her current issue is a common one, rashy bum. Why it happened, we can only guess (or try and remove the possible irritants and wait and see). How to heal it, we can only try different methods and ointments and wait and see. In the meantime, our muffin is a sad baby. It kills me. I work with doctors, and I know that a diaper rash is a common ailment that most often just needs time and at-home remedies. I don't want to be that guy, calling the doctor every hour, asking them to fix my kid for something that is so common (and relatively, simple). At the same time I just want to scream at the world to fix it for her, and make it better already!
I cannot fathom how parents deal with these feelings in their children that have much more serious battles to face. My heart goes out to them. I know that we gotta keep our cool for the kid's sake. As Brian and I tried to change and console a rashy, oozing, screaming child last night I could hear the tears in his voice. It is so hard to try and be tough when you are just dying inside, seeing them in so much discomfort. And this was just for a stupid diaper rash.
In this holiday season I am thankful for our health and comfort, for our friends and family, for a good job and the means to help provide for all of this. I am excited to be a part of this club - the doing the best you can, figuring it out as you go along, so much in love it hurts parenting club. It is so overwhelming sometimes.
Much love to you and yours this season, and wishing you peace from whatever ails you.
I know that the body isn't always so much of a predictable science. I know from my own experience, that it takes paying attention, trying things out, observation and time sometimes to get an answer. I still don't have answers to some of the strange ailments I've had in life. You heal and move on.
But doing this with my child while she is crying in pain (or sleep deprived, or starving) - it is something I hate more than anything I've ever hated before. Her current issue is a common one, rashy bum. Why it happened, we can only guess (or try and remove the possible irritants and wait and see). How to heal it, we can only try different methods and ointments and wait and see. In the meantime, our muffin is a sad baby. It kills me. I work with doctors, and I know that a diaper rash is a common ailment that most often just needs time and at-home remedies. I don't want to be that guy, calling the doctor every hour, asking them to fix my kid for something that is so common (and relatively, simple). At the same time I just want to scream at the world to fix it for her, and make it better already!
I cannot fathom how parents deal with these feelings in their children that have much more serious battles to face. My heart goes out to them. I know that we gotta keep our cool for the kid's sake. As Brian and I tried to change and console a rashy, oozing, screaming child last night I could hear the tears in his voice. It is so hard to try and be tough when you are just dying inside, seeing them in so much discomfort. And this was just for a stupid diaper rash.
In this holiday season I am thankful for our health and comfort, for our friends and family, for a good job and the means to help provide for all of this. I am excited to be a part of this club - the doing the best you can, figuring it out as you go along, so much in love it hurts parenting club. It is so overwhelming sometimes.
Much love to you and yours this season, and wishing you peace from whatever ails you.