one morel little vacation
Well finaly I near the end of shit i have to do this summer. I just have a Trichotilllomania convention thing to go to. It is in Santa Cruz, which is awesome. And we get to stay at a buddhist monistary! I really am getting excited and bummed out at the same time. I just want to get through this completely without freaking out.
I feel like I am going back to outpatient treatment for anorexia again. Then it isnt the same at all since i am nearly 130 right now! SHIT. I need to loose a lot of weight. I feel disgusting!!
And for some reason I cant get back into my old habits. I just keep eating and eating. I feel like a fucking pig!!
ps. this isnt me below
Shot with Vivicam3815 at 2007-08-15
I feel like I am going back to outpatient treatment for anorexia again. Then it isnt the same at all since i am nearly 130 right now! SHIT. I need to loose a lot of weight. I feel disgusting!!
And for some reason I cant get back into my old habits. I just keep eating and eating. I feel like a fucking pig!!
ps. this isnt me below
Shot with Vivicam3815 at 2007-08-15