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Things here are just kinda weird right now. I'm having fun but when I stop and think about things it just seems off. I haven't talked to Brad in a week. I had a dream about him and I called him but his suitemate answered saying he has no clue where he is. Maybe I'll be pathetic and try again. I know I'll be pathetic and try again.
So this weekend was homecoming. College homecoming (at least here) is pretty shitty. Our peprally/bonfire turned out to be about 30 people in the gym and no bonfire thanks to the torential downpours. Maybe it's the weather that made it suck but. Last night was fun though got messed up in Dave's room and just ran around bogart as usual. Barely anyone here can party like my real friends can. No one actually. I can't wait to go home. I have sooo much work to do tomorrow it's ridiculous. I can't wait to go back to where my friends are and not be afraid to be judged by people and know that they are really your friends. I get ridiculed here for being who i am. Basically because the guys here are so different. I wouldn't give two shits about what they thought about me except for the fact that wait, they are the closest things to friends I have here. I'm afraid I've been forgetting about my AT friends who are much more closer to my friends back home. I wanted to hang out with them tonight but that didn't happen.
Me and Cornell boy hung out Wednesday night. Sober hook up? I don't know what that means. It's too early to tell anyway and I sure as hell know not to get my hopes up. But it would be wonderful if something did happen cuz I'm dying for a normal boy. Funny he's in Buffalo this weekend visiting friends. We'll see if he calls when he's back at IC.
So this weekend was homecoming. College homecoming (at least here) is pretty shitty. Our peprally/bonfire turned out to be about 30 people in the gym and no bonfire thanks to the torential downpours. Maybe it's the weather that made it suck but. Last night was fun though got messed up in Dave's room and just ran around bogart as usual. Barely anyone here can party like my real friends can. No one actually. I can't wait to go home. I have sooo much work to do tomorrow it's ridiculous. I can't wait to go back to where my friends are and not be afraid to be judged by people and know that they are really your friends. I get ridiculed here for being who i am. Basically because the guys here are so different. I wouldn't give two shits about what they thought about me except for the fact that wait, they are the closest things to friends I have here. I'm afraid I've been forgetting about my AT friends who are much more closer to my friends back home. I wanted to hang out with them tonight but that didn't happen.
Me and Cornell boy hung out Wednesday night. Sober hook up? I don't know what that means. It's too early to tell anyway and I sure as hell know not to get my hopes up. But it would be wonderful if something did happen cuz I'm dying for a normal boy. Funny he's in Buffalo this weekend visiting friends. We'll see if he calls when he's back at IC.