what do we do now?

[danceluver]

i dont believe in most things any more. if there is a higher power, why is there so much suffering. why would "he, it, they," let a young man die so suddenly. all he needed was one more breath, he just needed a little help. he wasnt a crazed criminal or suffering from a crippling disease he just needed to catch his breath. he was too kind. he helped when no one was there. not to mention all of the other young people that are still in pain from learning of his passing. sending other people, just as young, into fits of depression. my brother will never be the same. stan, well, he really wont ever be the same bless his heart. and i know i wont. it just does not make any sense to me. i guess that is a control freak for you. but, actually it has never made any sense.

i will never forget that phone call or what cole said when i walked through the door...."what do we do now?"