hit me i can take your cheap shots
no seriously, im tough as nails bitch.
not to mention that i have always liked to think i lived dangerously. i am dangerous. so im back to my once every 2 month update. weak.
now on to more serious business. which i don't think i really have but whatevs, let me see. i haven't been home lately which is soon going to change because 1) i have no more reason to spend all my time here (i think it's the season of hearbreak... for serious) 2) the coolest kids are there and have the coolest apartment (even if his clothes are in the closet in his bathroom) 3) my jewish friend 4) Urban mother fucking outfitters!!! and other things that i can't really think of. I've been moving myself out for the last two days, so now people can actually stay with me instead of in a jail cell of a dorm room. word. it's flippin sweeeeeeet. ----->im taking this a lot better than i thought i would. except for the fact that instead of studying i watched some movie about cheerleaders trying to rob a bank as betty dolls. but i am pathetic, don't get me wrong. this is unlike any other i've ever experienced. but i think it might be due to the fact that im growing up. damnit. i've learned a lot i guess, but am i really a mean person, because i know i can be. i have no idea. but im taking arms. because this isn't going to happen again. i hate being such a girl, being left so vulnerable while all along the world she knew so well is slowly collapsing around her. am i that naiive? maybe, but im slowly learning. i hate this game of heartbreak. i feel like i can't hold on to anything longer than 3months, i must be difficult or something. is there a cool boy out there looking for a cool girl who likes doing nothing and lasting relationships, or making out, or falling in love? Is there a boy out there that doesn't mind fighting with girls who tell it like it is and are as stubborn as.... i don't know but something stubborn? is there a boy out there who likes to rock out and dance and listens to good music? because if there is.... you should give me a call. and im sure you qualify for a lot more amazing things, but im a simple girl in love with the ordinary and when we meet, i can't wait to be amazed.
that's it for me.
word to your mother.