this weekend was really busy
at least for me. on friday i was suppossed to pick up my granma, but i didn't know how to get there so i waited at my dad's house for an hour until he got home, but by then it was too late to pick her up. you see we were suppossed to be going to my sister's scrimmage(?) basketball game at Depauw. and we did but not with my granma. so we were there until about nine and then we stopped at Chicago's pizza and i was goofing off with my brothers, it was so fun, and this guy who was good lookin' came over and said he knew me from school. i was all like okay hey. and then he said he knew me because of dan finch. woops, JAMES. he said james. and so i thought that was strange because i'd never seen him around dan. at all. that kind of made me feel like an ass. that i didn't recognize him. i didn't even get his name! so i asked dan about who it was today and he didn't know either. it felt nice to be recognized, my stepmom said all loud,"woooo, go court-nay...". lol it was funny. i did have, i think, pizza sauce on my chin. saturday i went to michael's with my brother and spent all of my money on something that broke right off the bat when i got home. so now i have to return it. that night i went to ky's because she blistered and shredded her fingers saving the weights from crashing at tech. i felt like a valet/nurse. then sunday we went to the booksale and to briget jone's. i was mad about something i should tell ky about probably. then today was fine and dandy, until we did this thing in physics and we had to put down our weight and see how fast we could climb stairs and i didn't go very fast because i had to pee and when i got back to do all the calculations and stuff, he said, "you're fat and slow." you know i tried really hard this summer not to give a damn about what ever i look like. then i just forgot about it, totally comfortable with who i am and what my weight is ( i was feeling pretty good from friday when several people called me gorgeous when i was wearing this super cool dress) and then that one comment brought back a ton of things my mom has said or my father. or just my lack of involvement with a guy right now. and it hurt alot worse than i thought it would.