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I wrote this when i was in jersey...it's so lame, and i'm so glad i don't feel like this over him anymore. it's nice when you feel relief getting away from someone. as ive said before, i don't get being so in love with someone you hate so much.
i can feel that phsyical pain. i can feel that heavy chest and nauseas feeling the second that persons face even pops in your head, mind the sound of their name that makes you literally feel like your phsyical body is shutting down. the thoughts and memories of them that are burned into you brain, that when thought of make you want to lay down and give up. being left there to rot and die alone. where it hurts to cry and you'd rather sit there in oblivion staring into space with no thought no emotion no love and pretend nothing exists..where you're so hurt and destroyed that it's easier to just think about getting up and bringing destruction to everything around you rather then actually following through because your body won't allow you the strength to do so. and the times your body does allow itself to bring destruction, it's usually aimed at its own blood, tears, and heartache
i can feel that phsyical pain. i can feel that heavy chest and nauseas feeling the second that persons face even pops in your head, mind the sound of their name that makes you literally feel like your phsyical body is shutting down. the thoughts and memories of them that are burned into you brain, that when thought of make you want to lay down and give up. being left there to rot and die alone. where it hurts to cry and you'd rather sit there in oblivion staring into space with no thought no emotion no love and pretend nothing exists..where you're so hurt and destroyed that it's easier to just think about getting up and bringing destruction to everything around you rather then actually following through because your body won't allow you the strength to do so. and the times your body does allow itself to bring destruction, it's usually aimed at its own blood, tears, and heartache