forget my heart
We were supposed to go out and play catch today, but he had a last minute change in plans. He called me because he was bored, and it took him a while to bring the whole playing catch thing up. He asked if I wanted to later, but I can't because I have something later. We got off, and I was feeling sad, upset. That made me more upset, and I wanted to cry. Why? Well: 1. I don't want to get upset with him this early in the relationship, and 2. I don't want to get upset over something so SMALL and TRIVIAL!!!!! Why must I be human?! I guess I'm scared that an argument, no matter how small, or even just the potential for one, will drive us apart. That's ridiculous because even married couples argue sometimes--who's to say we never will? Nothing is perfect, not even the perfect relationship. I need to keep this in mind, and remain fixed, focused on Christ. I figured out why I was upset, though. Not because I was so dependent on playing catch with him, but because I felt as though he had forgotten--he called because he was bored? Not to tell me we can't play catch, but because he was bored?? At least I know why it upset me, and I can deal with it now. Just because he may have forgotten (which probably isn't the case-it probably just seemed that way) about playing catch doesn't mean he had fogotten about me. :) It doesn't matter, anyway! It's a trivial thing that makes no difference. I'm glad I realized all this. Hopefully, I'll be able to deal with it and not let it get to me out of self-pity. I feel weird saying this stuff on here sometimes, but: Thank you, Lord, for your love! Thank you for this relationship--it's such a blessing!