first post
Okay so I'm just sitting at work thinking about some things. I definately should be working but I'm seriously burnt out!!! My job is so boring, Admin. Assistant, accounts payable, receptionist, and whatever else anyone needs. You would think it would be busy because I do alot of different things and the truth is I have things to do, I just don't want to do them! I want to go back to school for cosmotology or work somewhere that I can have constant interaction with different people not just my flippin computer screen! I'm not complaining, I'm grateful for my job. I work for nice, understanding people. I have good insurance, I get a Christmas bonus every year. I have no college and I probably can't make any more than what I make now I just don't know how long I can make myself stay here. It's not like I have the option of quitting but I could try and get something else. School is not an option for me right now because I can't just not see my kids 2-3 nights a week and I don't have someone who can just watch them any night and get them fed and bathed and in bed on time. I feel trapped!! I should've listened to my dad when he told me how important school was! I'm sure a lot of people feel this way, I just hope that my girls never have to. Well enough feeling sorry for myself. I have so much to be thankful for and happy about and I am. My children are well and beautiful! I have great family and friends. My mom is one of my best friends. My boyfriend is my knight in.... well maybe not in shining armor but my definately my knight in wranglers and workboots!! We have such a great relationship, it's not perfect but we both try really hard and we laugh more than we do anything, and even when we argue, we end up laughing at each other later and at ourselves. He loves my girls and they love him. I never thought I would find someone that we just made sense. I wasn't even looking. If we aren't right for each other than I don't know what. I know it's still somewhat new, only 8 months, but we've lived together pretty much for the last 4 months and we've been through some stuff, serious stuff. Anyways don't know why I'm posting all this I guess it's just my first one so I'm laying it all out there lol! I still don't really know how this thing works or if anyone will read this lol!