RANT
For every terrible feeling or thought
i have blamed anxiety for doing so. When im being a dumb irrational cranky bitch
i simply tell people "sorry my anxiety is bad today"
NOT TRUE.
This is never true half of the time, yeah i have it, but it is not my crutch and should never
become the crutch that i use to lie through my teeth.
In fact, you are pissing me off should be the reply,
not some bullshit answer about how i am sensitive due to the fact that my anxiety has been through the roof for a day,
a minute, or a week.
It is not the basis of every terrible feeling. If someone is being a dick and i am upset then those are the reasons.
If they have hurt my feelings and made me sad, then that is that. I dont need to justify my feelings by associating them
with a HUGE DRAMATIC lie which is anxiety.
It affects me, truth, but not always.
I am in bad mood today. I have been up down all over the place. I havent left the apartment, i have eaten a lot. I feel invisible today
and as if vince would prefer to use the computer then talk to me. I feel that my life is lacking stimulation, that laura has been a little emotional bitch who throws everything out of proportion. That is how i feel. And why,
Because vince prefers spending more time on the computer, he spent three whole hours today without speaking to me more then 10 words at a time and i dont get it. The computer sucks, facebook is gay, and here i am just wanting to talk to him and i CANT because i cant come forward about how i feel EVER so i just say " sorry i was a dumb cunt, it was anxiety" As if they understand that more and can push the fact that i sucked at life today off to the side. Also, Laura, okay. Does a day go past that she does not have an emotional stir up. Like fuck, WHO CARES if i dont ever want to date a vegan or vegetarian, its not that big of a deal, and it shouldnt affect you whatsoever because i will never date you. Honestly not a day passes that she doesnt get upset sad or pissed about something or someone. She needs to go to africa ASAP and learn that life is bigger beyond her fucking facebook, cell phone, and comments people make that dont really matter.
So yeah, bitch, bitch, bitch, rant,rant,rant. I was a fucking cunt today, yeah, but who cares, because its not anxiety, its merely the fact that
the people i know have been sucking dick just as hard as i have today!
i have blamed anxiety for doing so. When im being a dumb irrational cranky bitch
i simply tell people "sorry my anxiety is bad today"
NOT TRUE.
This is never true half of the time, yeah i have it, but it is not my crutch and should never
become the crutch that i use to lie through my teeth.
In fact, you are pissing me off should be the reply,
not some bullshit answer about how i am sensitive due to the fact that my anxiety has been through the roof for a day,
a minute, or a week.
It is not the basis of every terrible feeling. If someone is being a dick and i am upset then those are the reasons.
If they have hurt my feelings and made me sad, then that is that. I dont need to justify my feelings by associating them
with a HUGE DRAMATIC lie which is anxiety.
It affects me, truth, but not always.
I am in bad mood today. I have been up down all over the place. I havent left the apartment, i have eaten a lot. I feel invisible today
and as if vince would prefer to use the computer then talk to me. I feel that my life is lacking stimulation, that laura has been a little emotional bitch who throws everything out of proportion. That is how i feel. And why,
Because vince prefers spending more time on the computer, he spent three whole hours today without speaking to me more then 10 words at a time and i dont get it. The computer sucks, facebook is gay, and here i am just wanting to talk to him and i CANT because i cant come forward about how i feel EVER so i just say " sorry i was a dumb cunt, it was anxiety" As if they understand that more and can push the fact that i sucked at life today off to the side. Also, Laura, okay. Does a day go past that she does not have an emotional stir up. Like fuck, WHO CARES if i dont ever want to date a vegan or vegetarian, its not that big of a deal, and it shouldnt affect you whatsoever because i will never date you. Honestly not a day passes that she doesnt get upset sad or pissed about something or someone. She needs to go to africa ASAP and learn that life is bigger beyond her fucking facebook, cell phone, and comments people make that dont really matter.
So yeah, bitch, bitch, bitch, rant,rant,rant. I was a fucking cunt today, yeah, but who cares, because its not anxiety, its merely the fact that
the people i know have been sucking dick just as hard as i have today!