this morning sucks
last night was a great night... thanks austin.. you mae my day.. but i can never be hapy for too long... it always goes downhill...
it sucks that i cant even have a normal morning without screaming and crying and yelling and slamming things...
i just want a normal family...
so i dont have to be watching my back so that i dont piss my parents off... and i dont have to leave my own house because i cant stand the way im getting treated...
im glad i have one thing in my life.... the one person i kno always cares about me... and im so0o grateful tooo... because without him... my life would seem so pointless
and it sux that the one thing that makes it worth going thru hell everyday... that one thing i never get to be with... i can never see him... and it seems like i always get mad at him.. its not his fault... but i just cant help wondering where i be right now without him... id be a mess
an i cant stand my family because right now i can still hear my mom bitching at my brother because hes s0o0o stupid... and she always yell they always yell at him.. n then find reasons to yell at me...
im never perfect enough for them... even good grades arent good enough i have like a 3.6 n i get yelled at all the time... cause of course im "better than that"
n this year basketball.. wow im oing great right.. but its not good enough... cause my dad still barely watches me.. same with my mom.. but they woulnt dream of missing my brothers games
guess ill just never be good enough for them...
hope everyone has a wonderful weekend...
see you all in school.. im going to my dads so no updates sry... comment if u wanna
*s[A]m*
it sucks that i cant even have a normal morning without screaming and crying and yelling and slamming things...
i just want a normal family...
so i dont have to be watching my back so that i dont piss my parents off... and i dont have to leave my own house because i cant stand the way im getting treated...
im glad i have one thing in my life.... the one person i kno always cares about me... and im so0o grateful tooo... because without him... my life would seem so pointless
and it sux that the one thing that makes it worth going thru hell everyday... that one thing i never get to be with... i can never see him... and it seems like i always get mad at him.. its not his fault... but i just cant help wondering where i be right now without him... id be a mess
an i cant stand my family because right now i can still hear my mom bitching at my brother because hes s0o0o stupid... and she always yell they always yell at him.. n then find reasons to yell at me...
im never perfect enough for them... even good grades arent good enough i have like a 3.6 n i get yelled at all the time... cause of course im "better than that"
n this year basketball.. wow im oing great right.. but its not good enough... cause my dad still barely watches me.. same with my mom.. but they woulnt dream of missing my brothers games
guess ill just never be good enough for them...
hope everyone has a wonderful weekend...
see you all in school.. im going to my dads so no updates sry... comment if u wanna
*s[A]m*