another funn filled day
so this morning my grandpa was all bitchy cause me n caylin were ohh kno wait for it
sleeping past eleven... n then me n her woke up n got ready n went to novi mall to go to borders and we did that n drove around for a while... then ended up back home at like 4... i had to clean my car... n ya we got bitched at for doing nothing all day by our grandpa...
and then lets see umm me n cay sat by the pool n read until 5:30... and we read n tanned n i actualli got sum color... so yes that was good
n then we came in n got ready for dinner ( got dresed n shyt) - cleaned up -
and then at dinner me n cay n my gma were all talking like normal conversation n my grandpa starts bitching at me like none other about how i need to stop talking because kids in his day didnt talk at the dinner table n how i need to "stop yakking" so i was ffucking pissed about that
so i finished n got up n left... n my gma was mad at him... n then they got all into it about how me n cay arent going to bed and waking up at appropriate times cause m gpa thinks we should be in bed and out of bed by 11... n my gma is like NOO.... so ya today is just another one of those good days trying to get worse...
and i dont even get it everything was fine i never do anything wrong and people just start going off on me... one thing after the next im losing every battle
he onli thing i thought was worth fighting for is gone... and even thought its still worth the fight... its like an ant picking a battle with a lion
i dont see that turning out good... so yes as my life gets progressively worse im forced to not be myself.. and pretend im okay with everything.. when im not
so thats my new challenge for a while.. pretend to be fine.. and make it convincing... so yes if i pull it off im acctualli thinking about taking up acting...
and thats baout it for today.... alicia is coming to hang with me n cay tongiht at like 9... im pissed because i was looking up directions to club inferno online... but did i find them NOOO of course not because the one glimmer of happiness for today is not allowed to happen
cause my life would end up like this... just because i guess you cant sit there and count yur blesssings... cause then people take away yur blessing...
if at night you cant sleep... count yur blessings instead of sheep
me n tor n lauren saw that on our schools board outside the chhurch..
so im down to counting sheep... because i no longer have enough blessings to get me to sleep :: theyre all gone ::
and so im gunna go read... again... im reali into this reading thing... hmm... n im kinda dissapointed i didnt get invited to jons... which prolly has to do with mairin... i dunno ... w/e just another thing i thought i had... that i dont
im out peace
xoxoxo *^!~SaM~!^*
sleeping past eleven... n then me n her woke up n got ready n went to novi mall to go to borders and we did that n drove around for a while... then ended up back home at like 4... i had to clean my car... n ya we got bitched at for doing nothing all day by our grandpa...
and then lets see umm me n cay sat by the pool n read until 5:30... and we read n tanned n i actualli got sum color... so yes that was good
n then we came in n got ready for dinner ( got dresed n shyt) - cleaned up -
and then at dinner me n cay n my gma were all talking like normal conversation n my grandpa starts bitching at me like none other about how i need to stop talking because kids in his day didnt talk at the dinner table n how i need to "stop yakking" so i was ffucking pissed about that
so i finished n got up n left... n my gma was mad at him... n then they got all into it about how me n cay arent going to bed and waking up at appropriate times cause m gpa thinks we should be in bed and out of bed by 11... n my gma is like NOO.... so ya today is just another one of those good days trying to get worse...
and i dont even get it everything was fine i never do anything wrong and people just start going off on me... one thing after the next im losing every battle
he onli thing i thought was worth fighting for is gone... and even thought its still worth the fight... its like an ant picking a battle with a lion
i dont see that turning out good... so yes as my life gets progressively worse im forced to not be myself.. and pretend im okay with everything.. when im not
so thats my new challenge for a while.. pretend to be fine.. and make it convincing... so yes if i pull it off im acctualli thinking about taking up acting...
and thats baout it for today.... alicia is coming to hang with me n cay tongiht at like 9... im pissed because i was looking up directions to club inferno online... but did i find them NOOO of course not because the one glimmer of happiness for today is not allowed to happen
cause my life would end up like this... just because i guess you cant sit there and count yur blesssings... cause then people take away yur blessing...
if at night you cant sleep... count yur blessings instead of sheep
me n tor n lauren saw that on our schools board outside the chhurch..
so im down to counting sheep... because i no longer have enough blessings to get me to sleep :: theyre all gone ::
and so im gunna go read... again... im reali into this reading thing... hmm... n im kinda dissapointed i didnt get invited to jons... which prolly has to do with mairin... i dunno ... w/e just another thing i thought i had... that i dont
im out peace
xoxoxo *^!~SaM~!^*