something missing...
9-2-06
You will find the people in your life happy to see you and can focus on deepening the best relationships. Embrace healthy relationships.
Thought: Steve
9-4-06
Explain yourself to a partner tonight. You have feelings that are in need of being revealed, as you may not realize how far away you have evolved from some long-held beliefs.
Thought: Steve, dance?
This weekend was nothing short of perfect, other than the fact of it having to end. Steve came down for a long weekend and he brought his friend Walden with him. First, I skipped half a day of school so I could be there when they came in. They met me up at CiCi's because it was right off the interstate and met Joey. Then we went to my house for little while so they could rest because they drove straight through. That night we went to the movies with Melanie to see Step Up and then to Steak n' Shake. They don't have those in Buffalo. After that we went midnight bowling. They were exhausted still from driving all day plus it was like 2 in the morning. The next day we drove out to the Cape and did the whole Kennedy Space Center thing because thats what Walden wanted to do. After that we went to Cocoa Beach and I showed them the Wakula, we walked on the pier and ate dinner there, and then I took them to Ron Jon's. When we got home that night we got in the pool and the hot tub for a little while. That was the first time me and Steve got some alone time, it was nice. Sunday we drove around in the afternoon and got a lightbulb for my tail light from the auto parts store and went home and went swimming again... mom and dad had gone to the beach. More alone time- fabulous. After that we drove out to Meg's house for dinner. I wanted to do something somewhat romantic for his last night, so I took him down to Lake Eola and we walked around. I had never done that before, I had no idea how romantic it actually was... kinda of cliche, but it was beautiful. He stayed in my bed that night, last night. We fooled around a little bit, but we were both just happy being together. That was by far my favorite part of the whole weekend... being able to fall asleep with him next to me. Granted, we had to jump through a few hoops, like waiting for the parents to fall asleep, hiding him in the closet when Daddy got up and started walking around in the middle of the night, waking up early to sneak him back into the guest bedroom before mom and dad woke up. It was definitely a rush and definitely worth it. I'm falling hard. It hurts so bad to think about how far away he is... and how much I CAN'T do about it. I could write about how I feel for hours, so I'm just gonna stop now, you'll get enough of it anyway.
To Steve:
I'm scared of the way you make me feel... but I can't see it being anything but a good thing. It's just going to hurt REALLY bad for a while. I'm starting to believe the saying "You can't have happiness without pain."
I had the most amazing time this weekend. I don't think I could have had a better one if I had planned it.
You did break my heart when you left, but I know you couldn't help it. I think it fits quite well with that song on my cd that you now have... "I shivered once, you broke into my soul. The damage is done now, I'm out of control... HOW DID YOU GET TO ME! No one else on earth, could ever hurt me, break my heart the way you do. No one else on earth, was ever worth it..." Pretty good song...
I miss you already and it's driving me crazy. Only 25 days until I come up there...
No goodbyes-
You will find the people in your life happy to see you and can focus on deepening the best relationships. Embrace healthy relationships.
Thought: Steve
9-4-06
Explain yourself to a partner tonight. You have feelings that are in need of being revealed, as you may not realize how far away you have evolved from some long-held beliefs.
Thought: Steve, dance?
This weekend was nothing short of perfect, other than the fact of it having to end. Steve came down for a long weekend and he brought his friend Walden with him. First, I skipped half a day of school so I could be there when they came in. They met me up at CiCi's because it was right off the interstate and met Joey. Then we went to my house for little while so they could rest because they drove straight through. That night we went to the movies with Melanie to see Step Up and then to Steak n' Shake. They don't have those in Buffalo. After that we went midnight bowling. They were exhausted still from driving all day plus it was like 2 in the morning. The next day we drove out to the Cape and did the whole Kennedy Space Center thing because thats what Walden wanted to do. After that we went to Cocoa Beach and I showed them the Wakula, we walked on the pier and ate dinner there, and then I took them to Ron Jon's. When we got home that night we got in the pool and the hot tub for a little while. That was the first time me and Steve got some alone time, it was nice. Sunday we drove around in the afternoon and got a lightbulb for my tail light from the auto parts store and went home and went swimming again... mom and dad had gone to the beach. More alone time- fabulous. After that we drove out to Meg's house for dinner. I wanted to do something somewhat romantic for his last night, so I took him down to Lake Eola and we walked around. I had never done that before, I had no idea how romantic it actually was... kinda of cliche, but it was beautiful. He stayed in my bed that night, last night. We fooled around a little bit, but we were both just happy being together. That was by far my favorite part of the whole weekend... being able to fall asleep with him next to me. Granted, we had to jump through a few hoops, like waiting for the parents to fall asleep, hiding him in the closet when Daddy got up and started walking around in the middle of the night, waking up early to sneak him back into the guest bedroom before mom and dad woke up. It was definitely a rush and definitely worth it. I'm falling hard. It hurts so bad to think about how far away he is... and how much I CAN'T do about it. I could write about how I feel for hours, so I'm just gonna stop now, you'll get enough of it anyway.
To Steve:
I'm scared of the way you make me feel... but I can't see it being anything but a good thing. It's just going to hurt REALLY bad for a while. I'm starting to believe the saying "You can't have happiness without pain."
I had the most amazing time this weekend. I don't think I could have had a better one if I had planned it.
You did break my heart when you left, but I know you couldn't help it. I think it fits quite well with that song on my cd that you now have... "I shivered once, you broke into my soul. The damage is done now, I'm out of control... HOW DID YOU GET TO ME! No one else on earth, could ever hurt me, break my heart the way you do. No one else on earth, was ever worth it..." Pretty good song...
I miss you already and it's driving me crazy. Only 25 days until I come up there...
No goodbyes-