(no subject)
I can't believe I haven't written in almost a month! Of course summer is flying by as usual. Work, wasting time, driving, clubbing, smoking, drinking... I drink a lot. I should slow down... on everything. Seeing as most of what I do these days is illegal. I have been going to clubs a lot with Jessie Pieszchala. We have a fucking blast! Now we mostly go to Roxy because we have the hook-up there, and we are the shit. I'm gonna miss that when I leave next month.
Jenn and James both quit. End of story. There's nothing else to say. I don't really talk to her anymore. I don't care.
So for the first time, I'm finding myslelf happy with a guy besides John. John will always be in the back of my head, but that just can't happen right now. I have been hanging out with Nick a lot. Then the whole dating thing was pressured really hard by him, his family, his friends... If it weren't that we have so much in common, I probably would have dropped him like a bad habit just like I did to Anthony, Alex, Matt, David... and who knows how many other guys I could have been with. We are both Irish, drink a lot, always have a good time... but I'm afraid to commit. That damn word again- COMMITMENT. I'm really not that physically attracted to him, but I think that's changing the more I hang out with him. I could be really happy with him, I feel like I already have him wrapped around my finger, he will do anything for me. I have been talking to Joey about it a lot. And just yesterday I sat down with his best friend, my first boss, from originally working at CiCi's last year... yea, remember Mike the asshole- Nick's best friend. Anyway, he's not so bad outside of work, as long as I don't have to deal with him on a professional basis. We talked for like an hour about me and Nick. Between Joey and Mike, I've realized it's not worth holding back in this area that I've been avoiding for 2 years, he's a nice guy, treats me right, and I have a great time with. SO FUCK IT!! I'm gonna go for it. It's not forever, we have two very different opinions on the future, but for now, I'm having fun, going with my intuition, and will see how it goes. I have to tell you about our first date, but I don't have time right now, I gotta go to dance class. Write more later. :.)
Jenn and James both quit. End of story. There's nothing else to say. I don't really talk to her anymore. I don't care.
So for the first time, I'm finding myslelf happy with a guy besides John. John will always be in the back of my head, but that just can't happen right now. I have been hanging out with Nick a lot. Then the whole dating thing was pressured really hard by him, his family, his friends... If it weren't that we have so much in common, I probably would have dropped him like a bad habit just like I did to Anthony, Alex, Matt, David... and who knows how many other guys I could have been with. We are both Irish, drink a lot, always have a good time... but I'm afraid to commit. That damn word again- COMMITMENT. I'm really not that physically attracted to him, but I think that's changing the more I hang out with him. I could be really happy with him, I feel like I already have him wrapped around my finger, he will do anything for me. I have been talking to Joey about it a lot. And just yesterday I sat down with his best friend, my first boss, from originally working at CiCi's last year... yea, remember Mike the asshole- Nick's best friend. Anyway, he's not so bad outside of work, as long as I don't have to deal with him on a professional basis. We talked for like an hour about me and Nick. Between Joey and Mike, I've realized it's not worth holding back in this area that I've been avoiding for 2 years, he's a nice guy, treats me right, and I have a great time with. SO FUCK IT!! I'm gonna go for it. It's not forever, we have two very different opinions on the future, but for now, I'm having fun, going with my intuition, and will see how it goes. I have to tell you about our first date, but I don't have time right now, I gotta go to dance class. Write more later. :.)