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I hate this.
There's no other way to describe it. I hate it.
The two people I care about the most don't talk to me. One's too busy and the other just hates me. I just don't know where I went wrong in my life to deserve this. Oh wait. I was born. People don't usderstand how much it hurts to have someone point out everything you hate about yourself, or to have someone be too busy hanging out with someone else to even say goodnight to you. Or how much it hurts to have your friends all go out one night and not ask you to do anything. I have no one. I dont have anyone to talk to anymore.
Sometimes I just wish people would care a little more about me than they do. Like I hang out with people, but I honestly feel like I'm just getting in the way because I only see them a little. I hate how awkward and shy I am. I try to be myself, but it doesn't seem to change anything. I can't even tell if people acutally like me or just put up with me. Acutally they just put up with me because someone told me that people acutally don't like me. And then he tells me not to worry about it. And then he tries to tell me to care about myself in this email....but in reality it made me hate myself even more....
I don't know what else to say except I dont know what to do anymore....
Why can't we talk it over?
It doesn't have to end this way?
Don't you think I should have a say?
Can we just talk it over?
Why must I pay for your mistakes?
Lets grab our things and leave this place
Let's get out of here
There's no other way to describe it. I hate it.
The two people I care about the most don't talk to me. One's too busy and the other just hates me. I just don't know where I went wrong in my life to deserve this. Oh wait. I was born. People don't usderstand how much it hurts to have someone point out everything you hate about yourself, or to have someone be too busy hanging out with someone else to even say goodnight to you. Or how much it hurts to have your friends all go out one night and not ask you to do anything. I have no one. I dont have anyone to talk to anymore.
Sometimes I just wish people would care a little more about me than they do. Like I hang out with people, but I honestly feel like I'm just getting in the way because I only see them a little. I hate how awkward and shy I am. I try to be myself, but it doesn't seem to change anything. I can't even tell if people acutally like me or just put up with me. Acutally they just put up with me because someone told me that people acutally don't like me. And then he tells me not to worry about it. And then he tries to tell me to care about myself in this email....but in reality it made me hate myself even more....
I don't know what else to say except I dont know what to do anymore....
Why can't we talk it over?
It doesn't have to end this way?
Don't you think I should have a say?
Can we just talk it over?
Why must I pay for your mistakes?
Lets grab our things and leave this place
Let's get out of here