expect great things...

[danceblackheart]

i'm drifting through life again... not feeling bad, nor good about anything i'm doing... i just feel like i'm exsisting... that's it... i have a few things in mind that i would like to do, just to give myself a kick start... but right now, i've got no time... i've got class and work straight from 8am to 8pm most of the week... and when i'm not doing that, i'm studying or sleeping... i don't know... it's hard to explain... that lack of excitement i feel all the time...

going to band was rough yesterday... i wish i could go home tomorrow, but i have class and work until 8... my mom made some comment today that dan is going to come back for the funeral, because he's taking this harder than i am... i don't understand why i get no credit for anything i've done musically... my parents both always said i just stayed in band because i had to, and that i didn't enjoy it... and when she made that comment, it made me mad... i've been broken up over this since i first heard... i've done everything that dan has done in regards to the band program... i learned so much from that man, even things that i still use to this day... but i don't care about this as much as everyone else? i just wanted to come back so i'd have some kind of closure... it's not going to be the same anymore...

blah... there's nothing else to say...

later days...