I'm not who I was
It is strange to think that that boy I talked so highly of in my lj way back when later became the one person i hated the most, and then we were just silent, only speaking every 6months or so when i was then reminded why i hadn't been talking to him. And then a couple of weeks ago he approaches me wanted to make amends on account of it being te last day of school. and i was all ready to say no and tell him where to stick his message of goodwill, but then i thought about it and i only saw him as another student now, i didnt look at him with pure hatred beaming from my eyes as i used to. I had come to realise that it was the 14/15year old version of that i hated, and the current version of him i simply didnt care for. So i told him this and that was enough for him. well, that was all he was going to get.
It just shows how people change. I for one don't think i would let myself be manipulated by his charm nowadays as i did back when i was 14/15. And im happy about that. I do believe I am ever-improving, though of course some flaws still remain. The biggest one is that im a perfectionist, which has made my life exhasting to live at times; it means that i set myself impossibly high standards, mainly academically, meaning that i always go to class, always do all my homework, and fret and worry too much about it, and it means that im currently working super hard for two Alevels that i dont even need because Ive already got my place at Art College.
So here's some other things about me, some good, some bad;
* I want to be a country singer, so i can sing about pickup trucks
* My best friend is a guy, but my best girl friend doesn't understand and thinks I'm in love with him
* I won't go to sleep with scissors in my room, because im afraid Ill cut my hair in my sleep
* I read Postsecret every Sunday
* I have an irrational fear of vomiting. It the main reason I dont drink.
* I have only kissed one guy ever.
* Cookstro is my guilty pleasure.
* Im hungry a lot of the time, then i eat too much and end up feeling sick...and then i spend the rest of the day terrified.
* My acoustic guitars name is Kyle. My electric guitars name is Princess Octavia Regina Samason the third. i gave her such an elabourate name so that she wouldnt feel annoyed about me spending so much time with Kyle over her.
* I realise what i just said makes me a little insane. But its the way i work
That's enough for now, hopefully ill keep up to date with updating :)