argh...
i know this goes against everything i just said in my last entry, but i'm feeling really stressed out right now. it's as if i did a complete 180º turn from lunch time. casa and dance practice were absolutely fine, but then i find out that we're dancing at the homecoming game too... and i'm getting sicker and sicker.. and with work, school, and dance picking up i don't know how i am going to have time for a life... or more importantly, to rest and get better.
and not having either of them home makes everything a lot harder.. no one to talk to, and no one to just run to if i need help. especially brad.. it's sooo weird not being able to just go over and see him.. and i'm really feeling weirded out because he's not around. i know that i have my friends at home and i love them more then anyone, it's just really difficult, and stressing me out even more. i miss them both soooo much...
i don't even want to go to homecoming... i will most likely be sick for it.. so i don't know why i'm even thinking about it. i don't want to dance at the game.... parade, fine, whatever. but i want to be able to enjoy my senior year in the stands... screaming down... wearing my blue shirt that says 06 on it. i don't even know if i'll be well enough to do that.