summer has gone and past.... the innocent will never last...
yep. so the summer of 2005 has gone and past.. and even though it wasn't nearly the same as the summer of 2004, it was in no way worse. this summer, i accomplised a lot... i spent it with people that i see everyday, people that i hardly see, and i met new people... unfortunatly, i also said goodbye to way too many people for my liking this summer. it's okay though, because they'll be back. this summer was filled with late nights, many drinks, good laughs, great times with great friends, flirtations, first kisses, and the feeling of butterfies when you meet someone you really like. i would have to say, it was a wonderful, long, and needed summer vacation.
so it's our time. the class of 2006 has finally risen up to the top of the list on the high school spectrum. god, i hope we do something great with it this year. i don't want to be one of those classes that everyone hates.. i want to be the class that everyone is saying "wow, i love the seniors"... i know that i started out with a really elitist mentality about it all, but honestly, i'm just mostly kidding. in fact, i love the juniors and now think they're a great class.. i love hanging out with them all. i hope that this year, i make it worth it. being a year that no one in the class of 2006 will forget, i want to make it memorable. take all of my chances, make plenty of mistakes, but most importantly, make a lot of right decisions. turning 18, going to college, it's all a scary thought. it makes you step outside your comfort zone a little bit. and more then i'm willing to admit, i'm nervous because even though so many people are planning on going to michigan state, i won't have the great eight to hold my hand through it all. ryan's already not here, so he certainly won't be able to. and as much as we try this year i hope we gain some independence from each other. not growing a part at all, because i would die without them, but just that we learn to live.. on our own. because there will come a time when we won't have each other and will have to go through shitty situations all by ourselves. andrew is already doing that, and i think i really realized this through him. he's in another country.. without us. when he told me he was going, i really couldn't understand how he could do that.. just get up and leave everyone. but god, i'm jealous.. 'cause that takes a lot of courage to do. and i bet he's having the time of his life.
gosh, this summer was great. and even though i'm not completely ready for it to end, i'm certainly ready to let it go. it was great times, but there comes a time when you've got to move forward with things. and i don't know how any senior couldn't be excited for this year. we've got so much to look forward to.... powderpuff, last homecoming, last dances, last pep assemblies, last prom, graduation, senior pictures, college applications, spring break... what a great year it's going to be. i don't want to miss out on anything. i think that my friends and i will make the best of it, and make the best of our last year together. 'cause honestly, if you're not with the people that you love, and love you, then what's the point of everything?
and to the class of 2005. you are missed. more then i expected that i would miss you. but certainly missed. it's weird to be looking at your guys away messages and see "hall meeting" or "514 holden" as your new address. i'm certainly a little jealous, oh wait, a lot jealous that you guys are off having these new experiences and i'm still here. but, my time shall come. i never expected to become so close with so many from the class of '05 but i'm so glad that i did. i know i say it... practically every entry, but it's still very true.
it's also weird that my two boys are gone. one in ann arbor and one in oxford. although the ann arbor one is way closer, and it'll probably be him i'm visiting 99% of the time... i miss them both already soo much. ryan's been gone since the 19th, and brad went back for good today. i was talking to patrick (at music school in new york, 'cause he's fuckin' sweet!) and he was telling me about how it's so weird when someone is such a big part of your life for so long and then they go so far away... it's hard without them. and even though he was talking about his girlfriend, (which i think is the cutest thing ever.. they're adorable and i've never even met her. so cute.) it's still weird. definatly more so with brad then with ryan. i've know brad a hell of a lot longer then ryan.. and a lot happend in a year. neither of us can believe its been a year.. seems like such longer. feels like a lifetime. so many good and bad times. ahh. anyways, he'll do really well there, more then he gives himself credit for. honestly. and i don't even worry about ryan for that. he's got tons of friends and out having the time of his life. him and brad and complete polar opposites. but don't me wrong, i'm not worried about brad either.. he's going to be fine. just fine.
anyways, the grandparents are here for dinner.. eehhhh, fabulous =\
love you<3
~leigh