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im happy
im happy with him...
i realize that life is so precious.. we only live once... we should live it happy.. as we want it to. not being scared of things(i need to work on that).
my guineapig hasnt been eating right for the past couple weeks and the past few days, not at all. so i knew and she knew that she wasnt right... that it wasnt a sickness, that she wasnt gonna get better.
holding my guinea pig last night as she died.. the scared look in her eyes as i tried to comfort her... she realized that i was going to come home.. she had to survive until she was happy as i held her so that she died happy.. died comfortably. i never felt so sad... well this is the first time ive ever seen one of the only things one of the only beings that i cared about ENTIRELY that had never had a mean thought in her mind, ever.. so carefree. the first time id ever seen anything die.. that i loved.. to hold her so she was calm.. that she didnt die alone.. that i was with her..
i need to be carefree. life is short. and things can happen.......
padens drowning
rebeccas car accident
accidents happen.. sometimes the results are fatal.. but people need to learn how to enjoy their lives forever.. live their lives in the moment but still keep in mind that they shouldnt risk things... take their chances with drugs that can mess up their brains. dont do dumb things to ruin your being... you can be high without doing drugs. yeah theyre fun.. but you can be happy without them.. same with alcohol and ciggs.. you dont want to ruin your being.. your body... so tat you can live and be happy for a longer period of time... make other people happy. of course theres people who do drugs and think that that is their definition of living life to the fullest.. i guess it can be. but not to me.
im happy with him...
i realize that life is so precious.. we only live once... we should live it happy.. as we want it to. not being scared of things(i need to work on that).
my guineapig hasnt been eating right for the past couple weeks and the past few days, not at all. so i knew and she knew that she wasnt right... that it wasnt a sickness, that she wasnt gonna get better.
holding my guinea pig last night as she died.. the scared look in her eyes as i tried to comfort her... she realized that i was going to come home.. she had to survive until she was happy as i held her so that she died happy.. died comfortably. i never felt so sad... well this is the first time ive ever seen one of the only things one of the only beings that i cared about ENTIRELY that had never had a mean thought in her mind, ever.. so carefree. the first time id ever seen anything die.. that i loved.. to hold her so she was calm.. that she didnt die alone.. that i was with her..
i need to be carefree. life is short. and things can happen.......
padens drowning
rebeccas car accident
accidents happen.. sometimes the results are fatal.. but people need to learn how to enjoy their lives forever.. live their lives in the moment but still keep in mind that they shouldnt risk things... take their chances with drugs that can mess up their brains. dont do dumb things to ruin your being... you can be high without doing drugs. yeah theyre fun.. but you can be happy without them.. same with alcohol and ciggs.. you dont want to ruin your being.. your body... so tat you can live and be happy for a longer period of time... make other people happy. of course theres people who do drugs and think that that is their definition of living life to the fullest.. i guess it can be. but not to me.