i can be so annoyingly vague sometims it drives me crazy. sorry.
I think differently during break. Not necessarily more objectively or less, but less academically, like maybe everything doesn't have to make complete, logical, fits-like-the-pair-of-slippers-you've-worn-for-two-years-perfect sense. So I go back to Duke determined not to over-analyze and make the same mistakes and concentrate too much on this or less on that.
And this break has been no different, except that this time, I really don't want to mess this up. Usually I'm okay with knowing that grades may not be perfect, some weekends I'll spend locked in the library and others out and "people come and go" and all that. I guess I can see a goodbye or a beginning, a betrayal or a friendship and on and on with tons of other antonyms. This once- just this once- I want the beginning and the friendship.
But that's not up to me. These things usually aren't.
And this break has been no different, except that this time, I really don't want to mess this up. Usually I'm okay with knowing that grades may not be perfect, some weekends I'll spend locked in the library and others out and "people come and go" and all that. I guess I can see a goodbye or a beginning, a betrayal or a friendship and on and on with tons of other antonyms. This once- just this once- I want the beginning and the friendship.
But that's not up to me. These things usually aren't.