Meditation in Marlborough
I went to the meditation that I go on Tuesdays once a month in Marlbourough and they are going to have it twice a month one is about letting go and another one is meditation for active mind its on www.meetup.com and its called Buddha's Den. He actually turned it into the energy healing session (as he does Reiki) and I felt so good after it. Well I had to let go of the relationships that didn't work out which I had a hard time letting go of, but every time I go to that meditation it gets easier. Its just hard to come in terms with that someone doesn't love you when you like them a lot and never makes any real sense whatsoever. But one can't judge what others can't understand. Just have to fall in love with the right people not with the wrong ones. And there really isn't such a thing. Madonna "Masterpiece"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txj3eRoDT5o
I read in the book of psychology that we hold on to the negative memories longer then the positive ones, that's how they register in our brains. And if you really look back at your past there is a lot of good things that happen its just the expectations that we have are always high and we get frustrated and dissapointed when they are not met.
I was still happy with Jay... we still had a good time for all that time we spent together. So I can look at it as a good time, but even though I felt hurt at the end. I don't want to hold on to that pain, sometimes I feel like that pain and sadness is never going to leave me. And even though I have moved on its hard to remember, because all the time I was waiting for his call and I didn't know he was with someone else and his busy crazy schedule.
It was hard to understand when it was over. Nothing seemed to make sense, love never made any sense.
I am never ever going to forget this apartment I am moving out of. The bed I fucked at so many times with all the wrong people, haha, the ugly colors of the walls the ammount of reiki I did in that room and all the troubles and happiness I went through. It's like its a piece of me. The house plants, the feeling that this place is always haunted. I got a nice Halloween costume. I am so excited!
I don't know what I would do without all my friends and my bar, I would probably sit at home and watch TV and never socialize with the new people.
I read in the book of psychology that we hold on to the negative memories longer then the positive ones, that's how they register in our brains. And if you really look back at your past there is a lot of good things that happen its just the expectations that we have are always high and we get frustrated and dissapointed when they are not met.
I was still happy with Jay... we still had a good time for all that time we spent together. So I can look at it as a good time, but even though I felt hurt at the end. I don't want to hold on to that pain, sometimes I feel like that pain and sadness is never going to leave me. And even though I have moved on its hard to remember, because all the time I was waiting for his call and I didn't know he was with someone else and his busy crazy schedule.
It was hard to understand when it was over. Nothing seemed to make sense, love never made any sense.
I am never ever going to forget this apartment I am moving out of. The bed I fucked at so many times with all the wrong people, haha, the ugly colors of the walls the ammount of reiki I did in that room and all the troubles and happiness I went through. It's like its a piece of me. The house plants, the feeling that this place is always haunted. I got a nice Halloween costume. I am so excited!
I don't know what I would do without all my friends and my bar, I would probably sit at home and watch TV and never socialize with the new people.