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tonight was the most amazing night i have had with a girl EVER most likely. like seriously i don't even know what to say about this girl. im falling for her she's falling for me but there's one minor mishap that ALWAYS happens to me. there's a boyfriend involved. I mean i care about this girl sooo fuckng much i wouldn't even care if she just chose to be my friend becuase truthfully that's what i need right now. is a really good girl that's my friend and yeah. i don't know. she's the most amazing person i have probably EVER met in my entire life. she baked me a cake we watched a movie and cuddled somewhat. and it was just perfect. that's what i miss about the old amy. i mean i could sit there for HOURS just looking at her and nothing would seem wrong with it. and that's how it was with katie. i mean seriously. no one for a long time has made me feel this special or this important to them and it really makes me happy. she's dedicated to her school work she's dedicated to her friends. she's dedicated to everything she puts her mind to and that's something i look for in girls now. becuase i don't want to be with some girl that's never going to amount to anything. I don't want to be with a girl that's ALWAYS depressed or sad or whatever. I want a girl that's going to be there for me when I need to talk to her. Or there for me when i just want to hang out and cuddle. I have no clue why im rambling on about this. I mean we're friends right now and we talk all the time about what we could have if we were together. but then again there's the boyfriend thing. I don't know how i always attract the girls with boyfriends but yeah. somehow it always happens to me. and it really gets old. I just want this girl to be happy and still have me in her life. So whatever i can do for her to make her happy is completely fine with me. This is the first girl i've cared about in a while. Like actually wanted to make something out of the relationship? but there is nothing there at the moment. god i sound like a fucking retard and no one is probably going to read this whole thing except for katie so i don't even know why im typing this all out i just really need to express my feelings for her before it's too late? but i doubt it will ever be too late. this girl is yet again the most amazing girl i have ever met in my entire life. there's no sugar coating there's not lies. there's nothing but the truth and it's really amazing. like i can't even describe how amazing she is becuase yeah. there's no words for it. sorry for being so long and sappy but i had to tell someone about this. sorry katie if this seems wierd but it's how i feel and sorry if the feelings are too strong but that's how i feel. the end.