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so...
i'm going to rant about my parents (mainly my dad)
and i don't like ranting about it because i know what most of you will think, however involuntarily it may be. everytime i get mad at him i think "at least he's here to get mad at". and i feel like an idiot. but i need to vent about him.
he went to junior college and had no idea what he wanted to do with his life. before he graduated, he lucked into computer programming. so there was his carreer.
my mom was the same way except she didn't graduate, she just got into computer programming.
both of them understad that i'm lost, and noether are going to kick me out.
but they want me to continue at coc.
i can't do that.
it's a waste of everything to me, and i just want to off myself everytime my alarm goes off.
my first check from starbucks is going to books that i don't want.
and they aren't going to pay for them.
they'll do tuition, but not books, which cost an arm and a leg more, even if bought off amazon.
i can't bulletin this stuff on myspace because my dad has one, and he reads everything i post, and he tells me mom. so i get in trouble for my freedom of speech.
they piss me off so much.
i don't care that i'm under their roof. if i had money i could get the fuck out of here and never return. but no, i have to pay for coc. so i'm never going to get out of here.
i'm stuck in this rut and everytime i try to bring it up they put me down and tell me to "wait it out."
i'm done waiting.
i'm dropping next year and moving once i get money.
i'm thinking of moving to oregon once nat and i get on our feet. once i have money and once i tour europe for a bit, i'm going to portlan.
if i stay here for another year i might have to kill someone.
i'm going to rant about my parents (mainly my dad)
and i don't like ranting about it because i know what most of you will think, however involuntarily it may be. everytime i get mad at him i think "at least he's here to get mad at". and i feel like an idiot. but i need to vent about him.
he went to junior college and had no idea what he wanted to do with his life. before he graduated, he lucked into computer programming. so there was his carreer.
my mom was the same way except she didn't graduate, she just got into computer programming.
both of them understad that i'm lost, and noether are going to kick me out.
but they want me to continue at coc.
i can't do that.
it's a waste of everything to me, and i just want to off myself everytime my alarm goes off.
my first check from starbucks is going to books that i don't want.
and they aren't going to pay for them.
they'll do tuition, but not books, which cost an arm and a leg more, even if bought off amazon.
i can't bulletin this stuff on myspace because my dad has one, and he reads everything i post, and he tells me mom. so i get in trouble for my freedom of speech.
they piss me off so much.
i don't care that i'm under their roof. if i had money i could get the fuck out of here and never return. but no, i have to pay for coc. so i'm never going to get out of here.
i'm stuck in this rut and everytime i try to bring it up they put me down and tell me to "wait it out."
i'm done waiting.
i'm dropping next year and moving once i get money.
i'm thinking of moving to oregon once nat and i get on our feet. once i have money and once i tour europe for a bit, i'm going to portlan.
if i stay here for another year i might have to kill someone.