Next year...
~Woke up about 11 today. ate, cleaned, the usual. ~Watched an old competition video from darnis! IT was my first competition with them and i was about 9 i guess. I had to learn the 2 dances off of a tape within a week!! I think i did pretty good considering that most people at 16 can't learn something without being taught a step at a time and i was only 9! But i guess i was given that small talent to catch on to dancing easily! I def. wasn't given the talent of remembering history thats for sure! So it had to fall somewhere!
~I also watched American Pie...ahh that movie, so funny! Guys are just so desperate! I was cracking up like the whole time! I had already seen American wedding so now i just have to see American pie 2 and i will have seen all of them. I hate to say it, but i think that type of stuff really does go through guys heads!! Kinda pathetic! lol yeaa..
So i started thinking about some random things and all of a sudden felt really depressed when i started thinking about going back to school. Not about me going back, because i think this year will be awesome but about travis. He switched from Holy Cross high to Hannan high..which if yall don't know is from all boy catholic school to co-ed. They only have about 500 students total. I think its totally awesome that he decided to make this decision but im very worried at the same time. If ya'll have ever met him, you know that he is very friendly and will talk to you about anything. So that means he is also very flirty with girls! Even without going to a co-ed school, he talks to plenty of girls and i guess i feel a little jealous. He also joined the football team and they aren't good, but its cool that he is having fun and enjoying what hes doing..after all , thats what high school is about! I just hope my dance team and dance practices and his football practices don't interfer with us being able to see each other. As it is, we only see each other on the weekends! i think our football games are gonna be on the same nights alot of times..which is gonna suck cause i want to be there for him! He says not to worry about it, but if i ever get a phone call after my games saying that he got hurt..i will be scared forever! Hopefully the whole weekend thing will change soon though, after he gets his lisencse and everything. I don't think that he will ever just drop me or anything but i have a feeling he is gonna feel left out if he doesn't have a gf that attends there. After seeing all those couples walking and holding hands, i think he is gonna want that and it hurts me because i know i cant give him that. As much as i want to, i cant! Then to make things worse, someone told me that the girls there a hoeish..not to spread rumores..just saying what i heard and this person would know what they were talking about! I have already talked to him about all of that but he promises things will work out and im worrying for nothing..but then something else happened and its got me thinking again...And if we do end up staying together, which is what i really want, when i go to his dances and everything, all the girls that are in his classes will be there and they will have inside jokes and everything and im gonna feel left out. Maybe i am just over-reacting about all of this but it still makes me think. Soon he will be drivin himself everywhere and he promises and always says he is either going to be here or at practice but what if that doesnt happen!? What if he becomes friends with many girls and they ask him to go visit them and he goes out to parties with them and he gets drunk or something and things happen. I don't know..maybe its all in my head that this is how it will be...but its gettin me scared thinkin about it...i dont want to lose him!! :( Never thought someone could mean this much to me...hes my BEST FRIEND!!! ...till later ~ash