Waiting
A fairly mellow weekend, started with a pretty busy Friday. It seemed as if I wasnt home for more then 15 minutes all day, I brought my car in to have its Emissions Test, and very luckily slipped through without a hiccup. Thank heavens. I was able to watch three movies over the last couple of days, I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry, Talk to Me and Ocean's 13. Chuck and Larry was very funny and made important commentary on the fact that, no matter who a person loves, they should have the same rights to healthcare and benefits as those of us with heterosexual orientation enjoy. Talk to Me was a mellow, NOT depressing biopic. So many of them have such an edge and element of depression, but the music was great and while there were some down points, it left me feeling glad I had watched it. Ocean's 13, I really enjoyed the first two, though by this round, you know there are twists coming, so you start thinking ahead. It was great to see Andy Garcia, Al Pacino, and all of Ocean's 11 in the mix. It's the kind of movie that doesnt actually take alot of brain power or emotional involvment to watch.
Sunday night, I went out to eat with Carol, I decided that I would not continue the drinking episode from the beginning of the week. We went to Restaurant 99, had a martini with dinner and then went to see the Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D. I loved it, I love the Nightmare Before Christmas to begin with, and the added novelty of it being in 3D is wonderful, they even added several scenes. Alas, you can tell it was not originally made in 3D, so it's really good and certain parts, amazing but if you arent previously a fan of the movie, it's appeal versus the actuality may fail to deliver. On a side note, I now have TWO pairs of 3D glasses, which are not quite as cool as the old school paper ones with one red lenses and one blue, but cool none the less.
Ive finally come to the realization that I was to emotionally attached to my friend who is working in Iraq. I care very deeply for him, but I also cannot spend my time worrying about him, on edge waiting for his phone call or his text. Sometimes he isnt able to do either, and I think the fact that I was less then available as he was leaving to fly over there was a source of some displeasure for him. When he's home, when he could call and talk to me for free, he doesnt, but when he's going halfway accross the world, he wants to. Men are confusing creatures. Im refocusing on just getting my stuff done, finishing school, getting my own affairs in order, getting to the gym and watching my diet. I feel good, better then I have in awhile, but more work is needed.
Shane has been an amazing source of support. I try not to mention my guy friend to him very often, because I know in some ways he realizes that I do have feelings for this other person and he is jealous. He really makes me laugh alot and is there for me when im blue or not. He's a good guy and been through alot with me. We'll have to see what the future brings.
In less then 5 days, I will be leaving to drive from Connecticut to South Carolina, with my Mother. It's either gonna be pretty mellow, or it's going to be hell. But my one condolence through all of it will be that at the end of the drive, I will get to see Pat. Ive missed him and I want to hear all about his training, he wrote to us last week with the news that he has been rated Expert in Marksmanship and other skills testing on the Rifle Range. He is very excited and pleased with himself, I personally am glad that he has done so well, considering it's what his job is going to entail for the next four years, it's good. My parents on the other had consider the fact that he is going into Infantry and are less then excited. Part of me is less then excited because I know it's the Marines who patrol, I know it's guys like my brother who work with Private Security Contractors in iraq. That scares me, just from what I learned in the last couple of months. It will all be ok and the way it's supposed to be, but I still have some anxiety about the entire situation.