Long days, Pleasent nights...
wow, so i havent updated in literally about... eight months. and a LOT has happened let me tell ya.
so the biggest thing that has happened is me moving. i ended up moving out to Milwaukee so i could be with a girl. i know i know, i do DUMB things for girls. ::shrug:: oh well. i dont regret anything, i had a lot of fun and met a bunch of really great friends. in the end, as most of the time it seems to happen, she ended up breaking up with me in a situation in which it seemed to me that she was going to go after a different guy. she said that that wasnt the case and she was just tired of trying to make things work but... im not so sure. either way, she wants to remain friends and truthfully, so do i. she is a really cool person, if at times judgemental of others, and it would be a shame to not have her in my life at all. i mean after all, im friends with all but one of my ex girlfriends.
secondly... i dont live at home anymore. i now live with my buddy Marc Carey at his house with his family in Ham Lake. his family has been so great to me and i dont know how i can ever repay them... hopfully i will be able to think of somthing. i dont have a car right now because mine exploded while i was out in Wisconsin, and i cant get any help from my mother or stepfather becuase my mother is an idiot. let me explain. i came home to MN for christmas to be with my family and friends. on the day before christmas my mother decides that its going to be a good idea to go to a bar and get really drunk and then proceed to drive home. needless to say she got a DUI and her car got kind of banged up. now her and my stepfather were about to get a divorce and end everything. he decided to be a stand up guy and stick it out with her and help her out of jail and pay to have her car taken out of the impound, costing him about 3000 dollars. as a result i have to find a way to get myself a car. which is gonna be tough but... i hope i'll manage. at anyrate, im living out here with Marc because i dont want to be around my situation at home. his parents have taken me in as one of their own and... on christmas eve they even invited me to the family gathering and gave me gifts... i could almost cry.
i got a job and everything now so i can start to save up for a car and a new compy. im working back at the old Chanticlear Pizza in Champlin. i didnt want to go back all that much but then i heard that almost the whole reason i left, the manager, is now gone! plus they said that they will start to pay me what i am worth now! im excited because i always loved the job and the atmosphere.
also, now that i am back home i am surrounded by the greatest friends in the world and i couldnt ask to have better ones. but at the same time i am so incredibly lonely that i dont know what to do somtimes. i am constantly with sombody but its not the same. for about six months i shared a bed with somone that i loved. and now having to jump back into sleeping alone and not only not being able to kiss sombody, but not being able to even lay down and cuddle with somone while watching a movie is just heart wrenching. i dont want a rebound girl of anysort, but i would love to have a friend. i dunno... i just never knew that lonelyness could hurt this much.
i am not happy with where i am in life. but i am horribly stuck. i have a plan, and i am going back to school (to college) in the summer semester. however to do that i need a car. so i am going to be working my ass off and not spending more than twenty dollars a week on anything. its going to be a lot of me reading or playing video games or writing. hopfully it'll be badass, cuz if it isnt then all it can do is suck, right?
sorry for such a long winded update but i havent done this in a while and i forgot how much i enjoy writing, even if its not being creative and just saying what im doing. ^_^
also, if you have any down time call my cell fone. its a great way to pass the time!
763-607-6937
much love goes out to all of you who will still read this.
-Niq-
side note: i am now nearly addicted to World of Warcraft. so if you play, let me know your name and we can group! ^_^
so the biggest thing that has happened is me moving. i ended up moving out to Milwaukee so i could be with a girl. i know i know, i do DUMB things for girls. ::shrug:: oh well. i dont regret anything, i had a lot of fun and met a bunch of really great friends. in the end, as most of the time it seems to happen, she ended up breaking up with me in a situation in which it seemed to me that she was going to go after a different guy. she said that that wasnt the case and she was just tired of trying to make things work but... im not so sure. either way, she wants to remain friends and truthfully, so do i. she is a really cool person, if at times judgemental of others, and it would be a shame to not have her in my life at all. i mean after all, im friends with all but one of my ex girlfriends.
secondly... i dont live at home anymore. i now live with my buddy Marc Carey at his house with his family in Ham Lake. his family has been so great to me and i dont know how i can ever repay them... hopfully i will be able to think of somthing. i dont have a car right now because mine exploded while i was out in Wisconsin, and i cant get any help from my mother or stepfather becuase my mother is an idiot. let me explain. i came home to MN for christmas to be with my family and friends. on the day before christmas my mother decides that its going to be a good idea to go to a bar and get really drunk and then proceed to drive home. needless to say she got a DUI and her car got kind of banged up. now her and my stepfather were about to get a divorce and end everything. he decided to be a stand up guy and stick it out with her and help her out of jail and pay to have her car taken out of the impound, costing him about 3000 dollars. as a result i have to find a way to get myself a car. which is gonna be tough but... i hope i'll manage. at anyrate, im living out here with Marc because i dont want to be around my situation at home. his parents have taken me in as one of their own and... on christmas eve they even invited me to the family gathering and gave me gifts... i could almost cry.
i got a job and everything now so i can start to save up for a car and a new compy. im working back at the old Chanticlear Pizza in Champlin. i didnt want to go back all that much but then i heard that almost the whole reason i left, the manager, is now gone! plus they said that they will start to pay me what i am worth now! im excited because i always loved the job and the atmosphere.
also, now that i am back home i am surrounded by the greatest friends in the world and i couldnt ask to have better ones. but at the same time i am so incredibly lonely that i dont know what to do somtimes. i am constantly with sombody but its not the same. for about six months i shared a bed with somone that i loved. and now having to jump back into sleeping alone and not only not being able to kiss sombody, but not being able to even lay down and cuddle with somone while watching a movie is just heart wrenching. i dont want a rebound girl of anysort, but i would love to have a friend. i dunno... i just never knew that lonelyness could hurt this much.
i am not happy with where i am in life. but i am horribly stuck. i have a plan, and i am going back to school (to college) in the summer semester. however to do that i need a car. so i am going to be working my ass off and not spending more than twenty dollars a week on anything. its going to be a lot of me reading or playing video games or writing. hopfully it'll be badass, cuz if it isnt then all it can do is suck, right?
sorry for such a long winded update but i havent done this in a while and i forgot how much i enjoy writing, even if its not being creative and just saying what im doing. ^_^
also, if you have any down time call my cell fone. its a great way to pass the time!
763-607-6937
much love goes out to all of you who will still read this.
-Niq-
side note: i am now nearly addicted to World of Warcraft. so if you play, let me know your name and we can group! ^_^