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The early hours after some beers. This is how this journal used to be done. Used to have a lot more readers too. Maybe because I was saying unpredictable, maybe shouldn't be said in public (or online public) kind of things.
I guess (after some years of writing as I wished), I have toned things down a little. I only had a couple of beers tonight, so there will be no drunken rampage (sorry if that is what the readers are after).
I guess it is time to reflect. I have been thinking over things in recent days, in particularly in light of applying for a job in Australia. In reality I would like to get that job. I am getting tired of slamming myself into brick walls here. The opportunities do not really seem to be appearing for me. If I can get a job with stability, I should go there.
Right now I have very little stability. Right now we are barely connected to Chile. I have a couple of classes and Francisca has a short term job to do. We just have to see what happens, but right now I could go back. It feels like every step of the way this year there has been something blocking the path, or some bad news ahead. In reality the bad things have happened to Francisca, but unfortunately I haven't been in the position to support financially in these situations and in my supporting, who is there to support me? Someone asked me that a while ago, and I didn't really have the answer. This has been a pretty heavy year and it has been hard being a long way from home and friends.
I feel I haven't opened myself up to people either. So many of the friends that I have made here are no longer here, gone back home or moved on. I just have a small circle of close friends and none of them are really as close as any friends I had in Australia, which I guess is a mixture of things including being at a certain age, length of time known and that fact I mentioned that I hadn't really opened up.
Anyway, now the hours are ticking by. It's 1am now so I should go to bed. We must have a big day of work tomorrow on the web index project.
I guess (after some years of writing as I wished), I have toned things down a little. I only had a couple of beers tonight, so there will be no drunken rampage (sorry if that is what the readers are after).
I guess it is time to reflect. I have been thinking over things in recent days, in particularly in light of applying for a job in Australia. In reality I would like to get that job. I am getting tired of slamming myself into brick walls here. The opportunities do not really seem to be appearing for me. If I can get a job with stability, I should go there.
Right now I have very little stability. Right now we are barely connected to Chile. I have a couple of classes and Francisca has a short term job to do. We just have to see what happens, but right now I could go back. It feels like every step of the way this year there has been something blocking the path, or some bad news ahead. In reality the bad things have happened to Francisca, but unfortunately I haven't been in the position to support financially in these situations and in my supporting, who is there to support me? Someone asked me that a while ago, and I didn't really have the answer. This has been a pretty heavy year and it has been hard being a long way from home and friends.
I feel I haven't opened myself up to people either. So many of the friends that I have made here are no longer here, gone back home or moved on. I just have a small circle of close friends and none of them are really as close as any friends I had in Australia, which I guess is a mixture of things including being at a certain age, length of time known and that fact I mentioned that I hadn't really opened up.
Anyway, now the hours are ticking by. It's 1am now so I should go to bed. We must have a big day of work tomorrow on the web index project.