jesse i miss youu...
okay so today was the first day of midterms ...i went into school at 7:25 with elyse and alyssa ..and we just talked to everyone then i went upstairs and took my global midterm it was soo easy...then it was over at 10 so i went downstairs and talked and studied for italian which was at 11 ....then it was time for italiann...o m g...that was the hardest test of my life...i was so happy when it was done ... i went home on the bus ...and went to get food with elyse alyssa christina and nadia...then my dad picked me and elyse up and took her home and i came home and went on the computer and started studying...i looked at my wrist and noticed that jesse's bracelet wasnt on :( but when i looked on my desk it was there...it shredded and fell off :\..so that kindof made me think of him and i really miss him..then i was talkin with nick and like i had such a good talk with him and i just poured out everything and he made me realize so much and helped me out with a lot of shit thats been goin on...my life has been pretty good i hafto admit ... i havent had any problems with anything or anyonee ...and likee everything is starting to get alot better...not that my life was horrible but there was stuff goin on ....anyways...i just let a whole lot of stuff out to him and explained to him exactly how i felt about everything and everyone and he made me realize something very important...so nick i appreciate taht very much...ever since the first day of high school nothing was the same ...everyone has changed and so have i and ill admit that ...but i dont think its been for the worse ...people hafto understand that i have a boyfriend who i dont see alot ...and thats why i spend weekends with him ...and i know i dont always make plans or make an effort to be with anyone but its hard...soo if anyonee doesnt like me or talks about me or doesnt wanna be friends with me because they dont think i make an effort...honestly just open up ur eyes cause it isnt all my fault..at least i admit it...soo i was talkin to nick and i told him how i miss the old days and stuff ...things are just different...but noww that i know i have changed im gonna make another changee ...so yeaa...