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I am starting to feel like nothing ever happens to me. Everyday (it seems) I lose friends that I used to be real close too (Troy, Rachel etc.) but really it doesn't make me angry or sad like I should be. This year has brought numerous changes. For one thing according to the newspaper article about me I'm shy, which is kind of true lately. Come this school year more and more I am starting to enjoy not talking and hanging out with myself more (of course not in all instances, but is that weird? Really I have no idea where I am going with this except for the fact I am glad that I have spent so much time with Lindsey and Frances this year, they are both very cool friends that I am glad I have made. I have to admit that Lindsey and I do get into some arguments sometimes and she always feels like I am somehow putting her down everytime I talk or write about her (which I do most of the time...) as for Frances she does take forever in picking me up and sometimes never picks up her phone or calls me back (although she claims too....) but the point is with the downfall of friends from the grades 9-11 I have made new ones and I am super glad I have, or else it would be like last year when Troy decided to not talk to me for about 2 months cause I left the stupid soccer team I hated, and it was as if my life had ended when my best friend decided to leave me in the dust... I have also come to realize all the shit stuff he has done to me other than that (having sex with my girlfriend....) yet nothing ever happens to him, sure his girlfriend didn't talk to him for 1 maybe 2 whole weeks, but I always imagine what would have happened to me if I had done that, I probably would have been hung in front of my peers like Mousalini or whoever that was... but really this entry isn't really about anything and I just needed to waste sometime before I go watch Napoleon. Or do I really care about everything I just wrote?
by the way I don't know if I'll ever get my LP/Senior Project done ever....because I hate everything I write and create.
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I am starting to feel like nothing ever happens to me. Everyday (it seems) I lose friends that I used to be real close too (Troy, Rachel etc.) but really it doesn't make me angry or sad like I should be. This year has brought numerous changes. For one thing according to the newspaper article about me I'm shy, which is kind of true lately. Come this school year more and more I am starting to enjoy not talking and hanging out with myself more (of course not in all instances, but is that weird? Really I have no idea where I am going with this except for the fact I am glad that I have spent so much time with Lindsey and Frances this year, they are both very cool friends that I am glad I have made. I have to admit that Lindsey and I do get into some arguments sometimes and she always feels like I am somehow putting her down everytime I talk or write about her (which I do most of the time...) as for Frances she does take forever in picking me up and sometimes never picks up her phone or calls me back (although she claims too....) but the point is with the downfall of friends from the grades 9-11 I have made new ones and I am super glad I have, or else it would be like last year when Troy decided to not talk to me for about 2 months cause I left the stupid soccer team I hated, and it was as if my life had ended when my best friend decided to leave me in the dust... I have also come to realize all the shit stuff he has done to me other than that (having sex with my girlfriend....) yet nothing ever happens to him, sure his girlfriend didn't talk to him for 1 maybe 2 whole weeks, but I always imagine what would have happened to me if I had done that, I probably would have been hung in front of my peers like Mousalini or whoever that was... but really this entry isn't really about anything and I just needed to waste sometime before I go watch Napoleon. Or do I really care about everything I just wrote?
by the way I don't know if I'll ever get my LP/Senior Project done ever....because I hate everything I write and create.