Fuckin Life

[danasian]

yesterday was odd...don came over...my dad and my grandma think that im going out with him. my dad likes him a lot though b/c don likes bush...i dunno it was weird. umm last night Nick was being a dick to me he was saying mean shit like no guy has ever liked me and i've always been used and the only reason why guys get with me is b/c im a whore...RANDOM HUH??? yeah well during that time kristina lacey and riss called they decided that they were gonna be mad at me....that sucks too....so my 3 best friends are mad at me...thats just great. what do u do when u dont have ur best friends to turn too?? yeah its hard and u have to deal with thing on ur own but sumtimes u just have to deal...sort of what im trying to do now. pat and i talked a lot last night which was nice. we discussed a lot of things. i told him everythign that was going on and he helped me through it...him and i both have so many problems that were going through, its sort of sick. i also spoke to jeremy, corrigan and alex about this whole nick situation. they were pretty pissed off to hear what was going on. it just sucks that nick had to say that to me. i mean thats just rude dont u think? i told nick that i should have figured out that he wasnt my friend last year when he told me that i was fat and ugly and i should be on jenny craig or the "jared" diet. and u know wut he says "the truth hurts sumtimes doesnt it" yeah that was pretty bitchy too. i also spoke to andrew ambrosecchio about this whole thing. it was good to talk to him again. i miss him a lot. hes a good friend. so yeah i got to talk to pat, andrew, jerm, corrigan, and alex about this and they all helped me through it. they all told me pretty amazing things. things i would have never thought i would get out of them. if only i could talk to my best friends about this. and see if they could help me through it. but fuck that. theyre all pissed off at me. i have nothing really left in life and that sucks.

school sucked today too. fucking math is sooo hard i wanted to just sit and cry in class. i got my report card today too. fucking averages. if u have a **.9 do u think htey would round up just .1 point??? nooo b/c they are motherfuckers. i dont want to discuss my grades on the internet...sorry guys. so yeah today sucked a lot too. but doesnt every day in school? ugh it just figures. well mayb tonight will end up better. mayb not. i hope it does though. ughhh i hateee lifee....im out peaceee

Dana