Oct 30, 2007 08:57
I haven't been on here in awhile. I've been sick, so now I'm just getting over this horrible cold. I still have a scratchy throat, cough, and runny nose. Sucks. My friend just died last week. In his sleep. We don't know why yet. I have to plan his memorial show at Gilman since I was the last person to book his band. This is also the first show I've ever booked for Gilman. It's just really hard...life's really hard right now. I wouldn't say I feel depressed, but I definatly feel the weight of the world at the moment. I didn't go into work for a week (I called in) and was afraid I was going to lose my job. but everything seems to have worked out okay in the end. This would be the first time I have ever cancelled working at this job and for very good reasons. Mainly that I was a walking germ fest and shouldn't be out in the cold and touching people's candy...or in germy, filthy, bars and clubs. And that I was too upset by my friend's death, which was so unexpected. It's been a week now and the idea of it is starting to settle in my head, but it still seems too weird and unreal when I really think about it. And I try not too. I try to just keep planning this memorial show and putting one foot in front of the other. I'll deal with how I really feel about it later.
I'm getting burnt out on my job. I want a REAL job. One with regular hours, and a shitty manager, and no fishnets or short skirts. It's not that I would give up peachy puffing, but I want to be one of the peachy puffs who only comes when they need extra cash, or is only there on the weekends. In fact I'm going to go on craigslist after this.
I've been walking a friend's dog a lot. This has been good for me and the dog, Sadie. Sadie is old and needs the exercise. I am young and out of shape. So I take her for long walks that start off with both of us trotting along, and end with both of us dragging our heels when we get back. it's also funny because Sadie is a large Siberian Huskey. And people are often scared of her and think she's wolf. When in reality she's a sweetheart. Here's what Sadie likes: Chicken, beef, creeks, wooded areas, small animals that run, ear scratches. She would never attack anyone. It's too bad most people are too scared to touch her, they'd be pleasantly surprised. Especially when she yelled at them in huskanese to keep going when they tried to stop petting her.