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HEY GUESS WHAT GUYS!? I ALMOST DIED AGAIN TODAY.
I seriously think God has a hit on me or something. Someone up there wants my ass dead...and for what reason I don't know. Today I was driving out of nassau again on the same exact road as two days ago...and four cars get completely totaled right in front of me. One of them tried to swerve across three lanes and hit this one car..then that car spin around in a 360 and hit another car.. which smashed into another car. All of this happened RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. All the pieces from their fucking cars rained against my windshield and I freaked the fuck out like "HOLY SHIT." If I were to leave literally one or two seconds earlier.. it would have been me. I can't wait to get out of that hell hole next year. I seriously just want Christmas vacation to come. It needs to be here right now. I have so much shit going on in my mind right now I don't know where to start.
I really want Christmas to be here.. but I feel like there's something I need to do before that. Especially considering that life doesn't last forever. That picture was drawn out in front of me pretty clearly this week.. since I came close to death twice in the past three days. Why should I even question going out to try something? I have been because I was afraid of rejection. I still am.. but I have to overcome it. Maybe God doesn't have a hit put out on me. Maybe he's just trying to tell me that life can end at any time..and you shouldn't have any regrets. No "what if's," or thinking "I should have done that before I died.. I should have told her that.. i could have done that." Maybe it's time I start thinking about what's truly important to me.. and put aside petty inmature crap, and that goes for other people too.
I seriously think God has a hit on me or something. Someone up there wants my ass dead...and for what reason I don't know. Today I was driving out of nassau again on the same exact road as two days ago...and four cars get completely totaled right in front of me. One of them tried to swerve across three lanes and hit this one car..then that car spin around in a 360 and hit another car.. which smashed into another car. All of this happened RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. All the pieces from their fucking cars rained against my windshield and I freaked the fuck out like "HOLY SHIT." If I were to leave literally one or two seconds earlier.. it would have been me. I can't wait to get out of that hell hole next year. I seriously just want Christmas vacation to come. It needs to be here right now. I have so much shit going on in my mind right now I don't know where to start.
I really want Christmas to be here.. but I feel like there's something I need to do before that. Especially considering that life doesn't last forever. That picture was drawn out in front of me pretty clearly this week.. since I came close to death twice in the past three days. Why should I even question going out to try something? I have been because I was afraid of rejection. I still am.. but I have to overcome it. Maybe God doesn't have a hit put out on me. Maybe he's just trying to tell me that life can end at any time..and you shouldn't have any regrets. No "what if's," or thinking "I should have done that before I died.. I should have told her that.. i could have done that." Maybe it's time I start thinking about what's truly important to me.. and put aside petty inmature crap, and that goes for other people too.