WTFJH?
Seriously, what the f--k just happened?
I was hyperventilating with anxiety last night. The hubs and I deal with election stress in VERY different ways. He needs to watch every second of the vote-counting, every news channels take on how it's going, projections, etc. because feeling informed makes him feel more in control. I do not. I inform myself well BEFORE casting a ballot, but then I need to stop listening to all the "what ifs" and speculation, and get as far away from the news because it's truly out of my hands at that point and my heart can't take the stress of trying to calculate it minute-by-minute. I need to just let it go until the results are final. So I did. I stayed on another floor of the house, far from all the news watching and talking, reading under a blanket and listening to classical piano until I managed to sleep at least a little. And then...wow.
I don't know what happened to this country to get us where we are today. I didn't want this. My family didn't want it. They're scared, and I'm scared for them. The last run of his presidency, we were literally talking about taking in some Mexican neighbors of ours to keep them safe from the ICE raids happening throughout town. Raids that took anyone without their papers, with extreme prejudice. And then there's all the Project 2024 horrors that I HOPE he just pretended to support and won't really take action on most of it, but am I confident that he won't? God no. Things are going to go straight to hell, fast, so here I am just chanting the Serenity Prayer in my head, consoling friends, co-workers and kids alike, and trying my best to work on what I can change to get through this next four years of...whatever the hell happens next.