p a t s pats pats pats ---
---is all that i heard today.
at first i was bitter because it was a shock that it was that cold when i made up the fact that it was gonna be like yesterday...and i was also bitter because i had the worst night in a long time last night, but thats all im gonna say about that cuz im not bitter anymore.
so now that im not bitter, i can say i really enjoyed the parade, once i got burger king with coll corm brisk kyle leo? and beth...because i just needed to relax and accept the cold. then me selby and i suppose angela had fun for the rest of the time just talking to make the time go by faster until they FINALLY came around and made the wait worthwhile. ive watched more games than people may think...so i really do know whats going on and who's who. and seymour is my favorite. and im still thawing out.
about having school and homework. about fucking off.
i just want hock champs and states to come so that track can be over for a lil while, its time for a break, not from trinch or hallway 20 min run games, but just track. and the coaches, oh god the coaches. dont even gettttt me started.
"just picture them naked...all of them...even o'malley"
"blonder can't even get it up!!!"
ok enoughhhh
im going to GOYA for the first time in a while tomorrow night. i wonder how that'll be...not awkward i hope. then mission mexico meeting, i can't wait til im in mexico and hot. even tho i dont function well in that kind of heat, 10 days is nice. and building a house for someone is also nice. then GREECE, enough friggin said. im never going to want to come back because it just that damn good. so go there, and stay there, everyone, please....
they say its gonna be dangerous cuz of the olympics and stuff, and seeing that im working there, i should be worried, but im really not. i think its hype. september 11th was a nothing day, so there it is.
i need to get off this seat and go do something productive.
i won't, but just, i need to. ok.
and if you dont like quotes, then stop reading cuz here come a lot because i had them all saved and i just need to put them somewhere...so bye maybe, hi maybe...
"...maybe it's the only way that we can finally stand on our own, you know, to hurt each other so much that we have no choice but to let go; maybe otherwise we never would..." -dawson's creek
"Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of who I am but most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you"
-dirty dancing
"Even if we never talk again after tonight, please remember that I am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me"
-Chasing Amy
And then there's no where else I wanted to be
Then be there when you needed me
I'm sorry too but don't give up on me
"i think its time i let you go, and that is so hard to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life." -Dawsons Creek
A woman who can't forgive should never have more than a nodding acquaintance with a man.
Goodbye's make you think, they make you realize what you've had and what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted...although the sun will never shine the same...I'll always look to brighter days
I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
And I'd do anything for you
When I look into your eyes a reflection of a face I see
Oh I’m losing you
I’m a hurt, downhearted and worried girl
’cause that face doesn’t belong to me
One fine day you wake up,
completely, hopelessly fallen in love.
He's just what you're looking for,
the only problem is that the man's not sure.
Another guy will give you everything
only problem is you don't feel a thing.
Well I know from experience :
Nothing's ever gonna make perfect sense.
And that's the way it is,
you've gotta roll with the punches.
That's the way it goes,
you've got to bend when the wind blows.
You Live - You Learn - You crash and burn.
It's hit or miss, and that's the way it is.
But life is so short and time moves so fast
I'll never forget you as I live in the past
I wanted a perfect ending, now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity...
~Gilda Radner
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
Sometimes it doesn't give like it takes
Love is fire. But whether it's gonna warm your heart or burn your house down you can never tell.
I hold it true,what'er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
Everytime I try to leave
Something pulls me back baby
Tried and tried to let you go
But it's just impossible
Everytime we say goodbye
Bitter tear drops fill my eyes
Wish I didn't need you so
But you're irresistible
I know that it's unrealistic to think
That things will get better
Between you and me
Cause time after time
You just shatter my heart
But when I'm without you
I feel so torn apart
Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure you'd remind me, if you had to...
*If your head tells you one thing & your heart tells you another; before you do anything, you should first decide whether you have a better head or a better heart.*
it looks as though youre letting go
and if its real then i don't want to know
every now and then i wish it were then instead of now
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line
*But I love the way you’d roll
excuses off the tip of your tongue
as I slowly fall apart*
Oh baby you, oh baby me
Oh maybe we
can try another day, another way
All in my mind,
I'm wondering why
We can not find
what was left at the beginning
Now It's Hardly Simple
It's Just Simply Hard
When It Comes To You And
I Find Myself Not Being Myself
Well I hope that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up staying
I can't be sure that this state of mind, is not of my own design
I wish there was an over the counter test, for loneliness
i called because
i just need to feel you on the line
don't hang up this time
and i know it was me
who called it over but
i still wish you'd fought me
til your dying day
don't let me get away
cuz i cant wait to figure out
whats wrong with me
so i can say this is the way
that i used to be
theres no substitute for time...
"After all you're the one who turns me off
You're the only one who can turn me back on"
thinking of the past
of how we used to laugh and joke
arguing who loves who the most
memories in mind
of how you used to tell me you love me
and how much you cared
can you understand how i feel?
Did I ask too much, More than a lot
You gave me nothing, Now it’s all I got
We’re one, But we’re not the same
We hurt each other, Then we do it again
you can sew it up, but you still see the tear...
the truth
is you could slit my throat
and with my one last gasping breath id apologize
for bleeding on your shirt
something keeps on getting in the way
between you and I ...
just wait one minute more
cause my heart is halfway torn
and youre already gone
One more time in this game we play
Sorry that I couldn't make you stay
Placing pieces on the floor
Of all the things that we loved before
"There are many lessons in life that only time can teach you, like how much you love someone. It's nearly impossible to know that, until you spend your days without them. And then there are those lessons that you can learn only through the beating of your heart, and through feeling such strong emotions that you can barely breathe. Then finally, the essence of time and the power of your heart crossing paths, and the only knowledge you're left with is the realization that time is the one thing that keeps you from letting go. No, it's never the embracing, or the kisses. Not the laughter or the tears, only time."
Time is the most important thing in the world. It is the only thing that can fix my broken heart. It is the only thing that keeps me going, and it is the only thing that keeps my hopes alive.
You were the only one
That I allowed inside my heart
Now I'm just holding on
To something so far gone
Where did I go wrong
they say that time will make all this go away
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows
and turned them into yesterdays
When you told me you loved me
Did you know it would take me the rest of my life
to get over the feeling of knowing
A dream didn't turn out right
When you let me believe that you were incomplete
Without me by your side
how could I know
That you would go
Tell the tiny chemicals
The ones you hold responsible
They lost me
You lost me
Now everything inside me tells me I should run to you
And throw my arms around you
Hold your streaming crying cheek against my own
And tell you nothing's wrong
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
but I don't know how
I dare you to forget
those marks you left
across my neck
from those nights when we were both
found at our best
I could make this obvious,
and you, you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off
your shoulders...
im leaving now. youre sad, i know it....