fishing.
So tomorrow i am officially moving into Jessie's apartment, and starting a whole new life. not sure what the internet situation will be, so wanted to write today.
Last week Steve and I got back together. I dunno what my problem is, but Dan asked me out, so I dumped Steve. I guess i just didn't feel....IT with Steve? or i felt like he didnt really want a relationship? anyway he definitely hates me now and I feel kinda bad about it. But really where would things have gone with him? he wasnt very ambitious or good with kids. i hated that he smoked. moving on!
The night with Dan was great. After weeks of phone sex it was great to finally act on impulses and desires. He hasn't called yet today...i am hoping this is just a guy thing where they take a couple days. or maybe he just used me for a night, who knows! not too upset about it at all. I mean, he is extremely hot and i was just happy in the moment. i'm sorry if that's like, what slutty girls say, but it's just the truth. i have never been desired like i have been like since i got down here and i am still learning how to deal with it. all my life ive been the chubby girl who couldnt get a date, and now im like...sexy? i dunno. rambling!
Pat (patrick?) is my new british friend. he is dead set on coming to visit. this is flattering.
start my new job next week. excited, nervous, happy, thrilled....all of these. the money will be such a relief. and meeting new people, feeling productive again, having a schedule. all great things.
david blackmar and i still talk every day. i dunno what to think about that. are we good friends? i guess? we should hang out and figure it out.
Last week Steve and I got back together. I dunno what my problem is, but Dan asked me out, so I dumped Steve. I guess i just didn't feel....IT with Steve? or i felt like he didnt really want a relationship? anyway he definitely hates me now and I feel kinda bad about it. But really where would things have gone with him? he wasnt very ambitious or good with kids. i hated that he smoked. moving on!
The night with Dan was great. After weeks of phone sex it was great to finally act on impulses and desires. He hasn't called yet today...i am hoping this is just a guy thing where they take a couple days. or maybe he just used me for a night, who knows! not too upset about it at all. I mean, he is extremely hot and i was just happy in the moment. i'm sorry if that's like, what slutty girls say, but it's just the truth. i have never been desired like i have been like since i got down here and i am still learning how to deal with it. all my life ive been the chubby girl who couldnt get a date, and now im like...sexy? i dunno. rambling!
Pat (patrick?) is my new british friend. he is dead set on coming to visit. this is flattering.
start my new job next week. excited, nervous, happy, thrilled....all of these. the money will be such a relief. and meeting new people, feeling productive again, having a schedule. all great things.
david blackmar and i still talk every day. i dunno what to think about that. are we good friends? i guess? we should hang out and figure it out.