welp. it all changes again. and again and again.
the thing i have the most to bitch about is my car. my 99 honda accord has served me well since my 17th birthday. I've done regular maintenance on the car, like fluid/filter changes, and tune ups. no issues have ever come up whatsoever. As soon as I got to florida I got the check engine light diagnosed, and they said i had to replace an 02 sensor. Robert said it was a $150 expense, but necessary. ....never got that done. last month my car nearly broke down, basically not accelerating when i pushed the gas pedal. mechanic charged me $500 to replace both 02 sensors and said the job was done. uhm, no it fuckin wasn't, car broke down again, and i had to replace the tranny for $1700 cash. now I am in the hole to my dad $2200. FML.
All I have really wanted was independence. And it's great my dad is here for me now after being gone so long, but like, I didn't want it to be this way. I didn't want to continue to be a drain on him at 25.
BUT now that scott and I have moved in together, we are saving buttloads on rent and I will be able to make payments to him.
Just freaking drama, MAN, like emily getting fired at work so now I have to open, Kim not speaking to me for a week at a time, getting my shit out of my old apartment.
I feel somewhat accomplishes in a way though, because for a month though I've been taking about half the meds I had been. I am feeling pretty damn good. damn good indeed. If i ever need more....i'll just take more again...but now i know i didnt really need that much. anyway. it makes me miss kevin to think about. blah. crazy camp.
maybe i feel overwhelmed in some ways. maybe thats what being an adult is.
also, i've been in like, a media blackout since i stopped watching tv and listening to talk radio. all i ever hear about it the oil spill, or recently, mel gibson. if something important happens, please text me.
All I have really wanted was independence. And it's great my dad is here for me now after being gone so long, but like, I didn't want it to be this way. I didn't want to continue to be a drain on him at 25.
BUT now that scott and I have moved in together, we are saving buttloads on rent and I will be able to make payments to him.
Just freaking drama, MAN, like emily getting fired at work so now I have to open, Kim not speaking to me for a week at a time, getting my shit out of my old apartment.
I feel somewhat accomplishes in a way though, because for a month though I've been taking about half the meds I had been. I am feeling pretty damn good. damn good indeed. If i ever need more....i'll just take more again...but now i know i didnt really need that much. anyway. it makes me miss kevin to think about. blah. crazy camp.
maybe i feel overwhelmed in some ways. maybe thats what being an adult is.
also, i've been in like, a media blackout since i stopped watching tv and listening to talk radio. all i ever hear about it the oil spill, or recently, mel gibson. if something important happens, please text me.