[fic] I'm the only thing I'm afraid of - 2/? (Puck/Kurt), Glee
Title: I'm the only thing I'm afraid of (2/?)
Rating: PG
Pairing/character(s): (future) Puck/Kurt
Word count: ~ 1,200
Disclaimer: So not mine. D:
Summary: Kurt Hummel was a man with a plan. A very stupid, suicidal plan, indeed.
Notes: Spoilers for “Ballads”. The title (both story and chapter) came from “Amazing”, song by Kanye West.
Warnings: Hm, a bit of violence. Just a bit.
Thanks to: byte366, my lovely beta. Any remains mistakes are mine.
A/N: Sorry guys, I guess I did the cliffhanger thing again. D:
I'm a monster, I'm a maven
It wasn’t Mercedes’ fault. Really. Kurt must admit he’s the one who insisted on the subject.
Later on, the day that all the glee club had sung for Finn and Quinn, he and Mercedes went to the mall to shop for some baby clothes as a present for Quinn. They knew she wasn’t keeping the baby at all but they were in the mood. Between all the talking about whether or not to buy the red booties (“Hellooo, she’s a girl. Everyone will buy her the pink ones. We have to be original”, “I don’t know, Kurt. My mom always says red isn’t a good color for babies. And brides.”, “Don’t say that. I bet I could marry in red. Red is my color.”), Mercedes asked Kurt how things went with Finn.
Mercedes tapped Kurt’s back as he talked about the two of them hanging out at Finn’s attic, and her eyes bugged out as Kurt told her that Quinn’s parents kicked her out. But Kurt only realized Mercedes knew something else when she changed the subject out of the blue, starting to babble about her math class. It didn’t take Kurt long to make Mercedes talk (Kurt couldn’t help but think she still had feelings for him. Okay, so he’s a monster, but this was for the greater good) and he probably had his eyes wider than hers as Mercedes blurts out, Finn is not the father. Puck is.
Things went downhill after that. Kurt couldn’t believe Mercedes really told Puck to back off (“Alright, Quinn’s life sucks, but she should know to not sleep with her boyfriend’s best friend. They’re toying with Finn, Mercedes, don’t you see that?”). In the end, the drive back happened in a total and heavy silence. The only thing Mercedes managed to say to him, as Kurt dropped her in front of her house, was a pleading Don’t tell Finn. It’s none of our business before closing the passenger door behind her.
Kurt couldn’t get any real sleep that night, his mind was too full of erratic thoughts. Puck’s the baby’s dad. Quinn slept with Puck and even so, she told Finn he’s the father. Kurt couldn’t blame her, really. Having to choose between Finn and Puck to be the dad of her child? It’s like choosing glee club over football. Still they couldn’t do that to Finn. Kurt saw how devastated and worried he was. All that because of a problem that wasn’t even his?
He cared about Finn and, as he’s getting ready for school the next morning (took him an extra twenty minutes to cover up the black bags under his eyes), Kurt decided he has to do something about it. He couldn’t tell Finn, not only because Mercedes asked him not to, but also because all hell will break loose. And Finn would never believe him over Quinn anyway. Someone else is going to have to do this instead of Kurt.
That’s the reason Kurt cornered Puck after football practice in the locker room as soon as all the other players left. Since Kurt always stays behind, Puck didn’t recognize something was going on until Kurt literally blocked Puck’s way, both hands on his hips, a determined look on his face.
If there had been other people around to watch that scene, most of them would laugh to the point of tears. It’s like watching a dolphin challenge a white shark. That thought must’ve occurred to Puck, because he had a huge grin on his face in the wake of Kurt’s daring words. Of course, most people didn’t know that a dolphin could easily kill a shark.
“Missing your daily dumpster dive, Hummel? ‘Cause I could use a little pick me up right now.”
To Puck’s credit, he didn’t even try to deny Kurt’s accusation. Kurt watched in silence as Puck’s facial expression turned into something between rage and fear, feeling his chest squeeze a little bit. Just a little. He’s wearing a new pair of Colcci jeans and Kurt preferably would like to not debut it into a bunch of garbage. Still, he had committed slushicide over his DG raincoat for Finn once. He could do this. Kurt cleared his throat and peered quickly over his shoulder to make sure the two of them were all alone.
“You can’t keep hiding this from him. You have no idea what kind of pressure he is under. Please, Finn’s your best friend.”
Bringing their friendship up made Puck’s face look softer. He sighed audibly and ran his hand over the back of his neck, refusing to look at Kurt. However Puck didn’t move an inch from his spot or try to push Kurt away (maybe Puck wanted to talk about this with someone, anyone, Kurt thought. That’s the only reason he can pick for Puck telling the truth to Mercedes, who wasn’t even his friend). Kurt took a deep breath before starting over.
“Did you know Quinn’s parents threw her out? And that Finn brought her to live with him in his mother’s house? It’s not just Finn you’re harming for keeping this lie. He had to get a job he didn’t need so he could pay for Quinn’s medical bills.” As he’s talking Kurt felt braver than ever. “The medical bills for a child that isn’t even his. He has a future and you’re taking that from hi-”
Kurt felt the back of his head hit something hard and he closed his eyes as the pain spread inside his skull. Suddenly Kurt couldn’t touch the ground under his feet and as he opened his eyes, he notice that Puck had lifted him by his collar (Puck’s so gonna ruin his Hugo Boss shirt), his psycho glare back.
“That’s none of your business, choir boy” Puck said slowly, his voice trembling. “Quinn’s the one who doesn’t want to tell him. She said she’s gonna swear until her grave Finn’s the father.”
Puck released him and Kurt leaned on the wall behind him, breathing hard and fast. That’s probably the most scary day of his high school life (all the dumpsters and locker shoves considered, Kurt never really experienced that kind of physical pain before), but he wasn’t planning on giving up now. Kurt straightened up (picturing Finn singing I'll Stand By You to the empty auditorium) and looked up at Puck like a fighter who’s ready for the second round.
“It’s not just her life. Its the baby’s too. And Finn’s. How do you think Finn’s gonna feel when, I don’t know, maybe ten years from now, he discovers that all the pain he suffered through for letting Quinn give ‘their’ baby up for adoption was over nothing?”
“Listen,” Puck cuts him off. “Your faghag told me to back off. So why are you doing this? Why do you care?” Puck asked, his face once again mixed between rage and fear (and is it Kurt, or does Puck also look tired?).
“Finn’s scared” Kurt sighed and crossed his arms over his chest. “He’s scared and even so he’s taking this seriously. He’s doing something about it. But once he discovers he’s been fooled not only by Quinn but also by someone he thinks is his best friend? It would break him.”
Kurt expects a punch. Maybe another intimate encounter of his back with a massive wall. He didn’t really expect Puck starting to laugh.
“And I bet you will be more than pleased to be there to bring all those pieces together, wouldn’t you, Hummel?”
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Rating: PG
Pairing/character(s): (future) Puck/Kurt
Word count: ~ 1,200
Disclaimer: So not mine. D:
Summary: Kurt Hummel was a man with a plan. A very stupid, suicidal plan, indeed.
Notes: Spoilers for “Ballads”. The title (both story and chapter) came from “Amazing”, song by Kanye West.
Warnings: Hm, a bit of violence. Just a bit.
Thanks to: byte366, my lovely beta. Any remains mistakes are mine.
A/N: Sorry guys, I guess I did the cliffhanger thing again. D:
I'm a monster, I'm a maven
It wasn’t Mercedes’ fault. Really. Kurt must admit he’s the one who insisted on the subject.
Later on, the day that all the glee club had sung for Finn and Quinn, he and Mercedes went to the mall to shop for some baby clothes as a present for Quinn. They knew she wasn’t keeping the baby at all but they were in the mood. Between all the talking about whether or not to buy the red booties (“Hellooo, she’s a girl. Everyone will buy her the pink ones. We have to be original”, “I don’t know, Kurt. My mom always says red isn’t a good color for babies. And brides.”, “Don’t say that. I bet I could marry in red. Red is my color.”), Mercedes asked Kurt how things went with Finn.
Mercedes tapped Kurt’s back as he talked about the two of them hanging out at Finn’s attic, and her eyes bugged out as Kurt told her that Quinn’s parents kicked her out. But Kurt only realized Mercedes knew something else when she changed the subject out of the blue, starting to babble about her math class. It didn’t take Kurt long to make Mercedes talk (Kurt couldn’t help but think she still had feelings for him. Okay, so he’s a monster, but this was for the greater good) and he probably had his eyes wider than hers as Mercedes blurts out, Finn is not the father. Puck is.
Things went downhill after that. Kurt couldn’t believe Mercedes really told Puck to back off (“Alright, Quinn’s life sucks, but she should know to not sleep with her boyfriend’s best friend. They’re toying with Finn, Mercedes, don’t you see that?”). In the end, the drive back happened in a total and heavy silence. The only thing Mercedes managed to say to him, as Kurt dropped her in front of her house, was a pleading Don’t tell Finn. It’s none of our business before closing the passenger door behind her.
Kurt couldn’t get any real sleep that night, his mind was too full of erratic thoughts. Puck’s the baby’s dad. Quinn slept with Puck and even so, she told Finn he’s the father. Kurt couldn’t blame her, really. Having to choose between Finn and Puck to be the dad of her child? It’s like choosing glee club over football. Still they couldn’t do that to Finn. Kurt saw how devastated and worried he was. All that because of a problem that wasn’t even his?
He cared about Finn and, as he’s getting ready for school the next morning (took him an extra twenty minutes to cover up the black bags under his eyes), Kurt decided he has to do something about it. He couldn’t tell Finn, not only because Mercedes asked him not to, but also because all hell will break loose. And Finn would never believe him over Quinn anyway. Someone else is going to have to do this instead of Kurt.
That’s the reason Kurt cornered Puck after football practice in the locker room as soon as all the other players left. Since Kurt always stays behind, Puck didn’t recognize something was going on until Kurt literally blocked Puck’s way, both hands on his hips, a determined look on his face.
If there had been other people around to watch that scene, most of them would laugh to the point of tears. It’s like watching a dolphin challenge a white shark. That thought must’ve occurred to Puck, because he had a huge grin on his face in the wake of Kurt’s daring words. Of course, most people didn’t know that a dolphin could easily kill a shark.
“Missing your daily dumpster dive, Hummel? ‘Cause I could use a little pick me up right now.”
To Puck’s credit, he didn’t even try to deny Kurt’s accusation. Kurt watched in silence as Puck’s facial expression turned into something between rage and fear, feeling his chest squeeze a little bit. Just a little. He’s wearing a new pair of Colcci jeans and Kurt preferably would like to not debut it into a bunch of garbage. Still, he had committed slushicide over his DG raincoat for Finn once. He could do this. Kurt cleared his throat and peered quickly over his shoulder to make sure the two of them were all alone.
“You can’t keep hiding this from him. You have no idea what kind of pressure he is under. Please, Finn’s your best friend.”
Bringing their friendship up made Puck’s face look softer. He sighed audibly and ran his hand over the back of his neck, refusing to look at Kurt. However Puck didn’t move an inch from his spot or try to push Kurt away (maybe Puck wanted to talk about this with someone, anyone, Kurt thought. That’s the only reason he can pick for Puck telling the truth to Mercedes, who wasn’t even his friend). Kurt took a deep breath before starting over.
“Did you know Quinn’s parents threw her out? And that Finn brought her to live with him in his mother’s house? It’s not just Finn you’re harming for keeping this lie. He had to get a job he didn’t need so he could pay for Quinn’s medical bills.” As he’s talking Kurt felt braver than ever. “The medical bills for a child that isn’t even his. He has a future and you’re taking that from hi-”
Kurt felt the back of his head hit something hard and he closed his eyes as the pain spread inside his skull. Suddenly Kurt couldn’t touch the ground under his feet and as he opened his eyes, he notice that Puck had lifted him by his collar (Puck’s so gonna ruin his Hugo Boss shirt), his psycho glare back.
“That’s none of your business, choir boy” Puck said slowly, his voice trembling. “Quinn’s the one who doesn’t want to tell him. She said she’s gonna swear until her grave Finn’s the father.”
Puck released him and Kurt leaned on the wall behind him, breathing hard and fast. That’s probably the most scary day of his high school life (all the dumpsters and locker shoves considered, Kurt never really experienced that kind of physical pain before), but he wasn’t planning on giving up now. Kurt straightened up (picturing Finn singing I'll Stand By You to the empty auditorium) and looked up at Puck like a fighter who’s ready for the second round.
“It’s not just her life. Its the baby’s too. And Finn’s. How do you think Finn’s gonna feel when, I don’t know, maybe ten years from now, he discovers that all the pain he suffered through for letting Quinn give ‘their’ baby up for adoption was over nothing?”
“Listen,” Puck cuts him off. “Your faghag told me to back off. So why are you doing this? Why do you care?” Puck asked, his face once again mixed between rage and fear (and is it Kurt, or does Puck also look tired?).
“Finn’s scared” Kurt sighed and crossed his arms over his chest. “He’s scared and even so he’s taking this seriously. He’s doing something about it. But once he discovers he’s been fooled not only by Quinn but also by someone he thinks is his best friend? It would break him.”
Kurt expects a punch. Maybe another intimate encounter of his back with a massive wall. He didn’t really expect Puck starting to laugh.
“And I bet you will be more than pleased to be there to bring all those pieces together, wouldn’t you, Hummel?”
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