Frustrated...
Well I'm really frustrated with myself. I can't seem to read the bible or even just get into it! It's like I want to but then I get easily distracted. I really don't know what to do. I've bought myself a couple of devotional books and that doesn't seem to help me. I've completely lost my passion. I've let it become an obligation. I remember when I was 13 how happy I was in Christ. How eager I was to learn all about Him and the Bible. How important it was for me to find a church or at least people who are like minded. I want that passion back but I don't know how to get it back... I want Christ to be important to me once more, I want to experience His love and joy. I want to be able to share all the wonderful things He's done for me, how much He has healed me, How He takes me back a million times when I screw up a million times. I do love Him but He's no longer my first love...and that saddens me about myself. I'm in such a rush to do things on the computer, read the books I love, and watch the movies I love. All these things have taken His place. I can't seem to prioritize sensibly. Hmmm. I definitely need Him back in first. I'm gonna try reading something tonight.