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Hmm i dont know what i want to write about. and i dont know what is quite on my mind, im not like sad or anything, im not bored, well im bored cuz im in school but idk i have noticed myself getting angry/annoyed pretty easily and i dont know why, mainly at my mom. the part that confuses me the most is im NOT USING DRUGS! its so weird and its starting to annoy me cause i thought that once you stop using drugs you change your behaviors?
I dont understand it, my life is going amazing! I have an amazing girl in my life who i love to death, I have a band thats actually going to go somewhere and has my back, I have friends who i know who will be there for me, and a family that loves me. I dont get it! >:O
I need an NA meeting, I need to find some sprituallity, if you know me you'll know that im a full blown athiest and dont believe in a god or a higher being, but the thing is im starting to view a Higher Power as something completely different, somthing that can give me hope, something that i can look up to and know will always be there in a spritual sense, the only problem is, WHAT COULD THAT BE?! idk I want to see samm.
I need to be with her right now! grr I LOVE YOU SAMM SO SO SO MUCH! FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER!