Sleeping in my own bed....
I'm so tired... I'm finally home and will be sleeping in my own bed tonight. I've only been gone three days, but it seems longer. I think it's because I know I only have two days at home and will be leaving again for a full week. Then, home for a few and off again for another two weeks in a row....
It is not very often that I leave for weeks at a time, and I must say - I DON'T like it. I don't think it's fair to Hannah. But what else can I do? I'm salaried, but when I train - I get commissions per hour for training, per hour for travel and also expenses - all in addition to my salary. With all the travel coming up, I stand a chance to pretty much double my salary from one year ago - triple it from two years ago.... Every time I get weary and just want to say "NO MORE" - I think about the bills and all that I can do for Hannah with the income.. But is it worth it? I am so tired all the time. I miss my Sweet Pea terribly when I'm gone. Just the preparation of getting everything squared away at home, the bills, the critters, packing for me, packing for Hannah, making sure notes go out to the school, to the teachers, to after school care, making sure I've read all of Hannah's school notes on upcoming events to make sure everything is covered...it's like an act of congress just to go earn that money.... Calgon...take me away! And then there's the fact that I rarely have any "Me" time with myself or my friends....
And - Hotels suck! I hate hotels... They all look alike, they all smell alike, and they all have sucky beds and pillows. Even the water in a hotel smells the same. It's like the Twilight Zone.... You THINK you're in a different hotel that's in a different city....but are you? Are you really???
Just venting. I'm tired. Will feel better tomorrow.... Will be ready for a new week on Saturday when I board the plane. I hate flying too. It's not that I'm afraid of flying, it's just the dang hassle of it all... every since 9-1-1 - the security is such that you even have to take your stupid shoes off going through checkpoint.... Yuck... And if you pack too much liquid in your carry on - they throw it away as you watch that $9.00 bottle of lotion disappearing into a tall black garbage container... Yes, I know from experience.
There I go again...just tired.
I'm happy. I had safe travels and am home again with my daughter, the cat, the rat, and the fish.... Life is good (she says with a smile on her face)....
It is not very often that I leave for weeks at a time, and I must say - I DON'T like it. I don't think it's fair to Hannah. But what else can I do? I'm salaried, but when I train - I get commissions per hour for training, per hour for travel and also expenses - all in addition to my salary. With all the travel coming up, I stand a chance to pretty much double my salary from one year ago - triple it from two years ago.... Every time I get weary and just want to say "NO MORE" - I think about the bills and all that I can do for Hannah with the income.. But is it worth it? I am so tired all the time. I miss my Sweet Pea terribly when I'm gone. Just the preparation of getting everything squared away at home, the bills, the critters, packing for me, packing for Hannah, making sure notes go out to the school, to the teachers, to after school care, making sure I've read all of Hannah's school notes on upcoming events to make sure everything is covered...it's like an act of congress just to go earn that money.... Calgon...take me away! And then there's the fact that I rarely have any "Me" time with myself or my friends....
And - Hotels suck! I hate hotels... They all look alike, they all smell alike, and they all have sucky beds and pillows. Even the water in a hotel smells the same. It's like the Twilight Zone.... You THINK you're in a different hotel that's in a different city....but are you? Are you really???
Just venting. I'm tired. Will feel better tomorrow.... Will be ready for a new week on Saturday when I board the plane. I hate flying too. It's not that I'm afraid of flying, it's just the dang hassle of it all... every since 9-1-1 - the security is such that you even have to take your stupid shoes off going through checkpoint.... Yuck... And if you pack too much liquid in your carry on - they throw it away as you watch that $9.00 bottle of lotion disappearing into a tall black garbage container... Yes, I know from experience.
There I go again...just tired.
I'm happy. I had safe travels and am home again with my daughter, the cat, the rat, and the fish.... Life is good (she says with a smile on her face)....