Unaccomplished
When I entered our family friend's house, it smelled like yesterday. It brought me back on my first arrival in the United States, probably because the house that I stayed at that time smelled that way too. That was the time when everything was fun and surreal. Two years had already passed since that moment and there's no more spice in everything that I see here. It's just so-bland.
You get mixed emotions upon firsts. However, in the long run, you may like it, you may be fine with it or may give up. It depends on what happens in between. That's why, when you enter into something, you have to be certain. You have to accept the challenges with open arms. You chose it anyway. The question is, is it worth the risk?
I had a litany of plans. Part of them were accomplished, while part of them are still pending. The feeling is cloud nine when you get to accomplish them, while anxiety is waving its hands when you are still working on them. The biggest dilemmas that I'm having are confidence and motivation. They go hand in hand. You will never get the confidence if you're not motivated. It's a spur-of-the-moment thing. Ang sabi pa nga, "Kung ayaw, maraming dahilan; kung gusto, maraming paraan."
Why can't I even get a pinch of confidence? Why am I not even motivated in the first place? That's when fear comes in. It obliterates everything. For me, it's better to say or do nothing at all because I'm afraid of what people might tell about my words and actions. In short, I'm pretty darn conscious of myself. If you were my friend, you might knock my head and say, "Grow up!"
As you grow up, you get to shred every piece to see the whole picture. That's what I don't like about growing up. You might be successful in your career and have a cozy lifestyle, but you might not realize the consequences that you get from them. The more earn, the more is due, the more we get effed up.
Don't rush, especially if you're still young. Ditch first that dream of having a bachelor's pad and flying in business class. Aim high, but enjoy life. It's how we should play the game.
You get mixed emotions upon firsts. However, in the long run, you may like it, you may be fine with it or may give up. It depends on what happens in between. That's why, when you enter into something, you have to be certain. You have to accept the challenges with open arms. You chose it anyway. The question is, is it worth the risk?
I had a litany of plans. Part of them were accomplished, while part of them are still pending. The feeling is cloud nine when you get to accomplish them, while anxiety is waving its hands when you are still working on them. The biggest dilemmas that I'm having are confidence and motivation. They go hand in hand. You will never get the confidence if you're not motivated. It's a spur-of-the-moment thing. Ang sabi pa nga, "Kung ayaw, maraming dahilan; kung gusto, maraming paraan."
Why can't I even get a pinch of confidence? Why am I not even motivated in the first place? That's when fear comes in. It obliterates everything. For me, it's better to say or do nothing at all because I'm afraid of what people might tell about my words and actions. In short, I'm pretty darn conscious of myself. If you were my friend, you might knock my head and say, "Grow up!"
As you grow up, you get to shred every piece to see the whole picture. That's what I don't like about growing up. You might be successful in your career and have a cozy lifestyle, but you might not realize the consequences that you get from them. The more earn, the more is due, the more we get effed up.
Don't rush, especially if you're still young. Ditch first that dream of having a bachelor's pad and flying in business class. Aim high, but enjoy life. It's how we should play the game.