Messages for Keeps
I've been using the God Wants You to Know app on facebook for three years. It's like a horoscope that you get messages daily, except that it comes from God, not from heavenly bodies. Today's message has made again an impact in my current predicament. God wants me to know that I already know the answer. If I cannot find the answers I seek, it is because they are not easily expressed in words. He also wanted me to listen to my heart because it knows everything-but does not need words to communicate.
And that message has brought me to this conversation I had with a friend a few days ago. As she was trying to take a peek of my life and got perplexed with how I deal with things, she gave me pieces of advice which were already a mantra to me. It was quite an argument with laughter in between. Then, she eventually asked, "How can we understand you if you don't explain? What do you really want to happen?" Those questions struck me. Honestly, I couldn't utter any word that time. I almost got teary-eyed. I paused, took a deep breath and knocked the conversation off by saying that I don't know.
I actually know the answer to the first question. It's just that, I want my lips to be sealed at that moment. That is why, silence is the best answer to every question. As for the second one, I'm still quite unsure, whether I want them to understand me for who I am, or just leave everything as is.
My [other] friend was right in telling me that I am being misunderstood. I also feel the same way towards them. I don't understand why everything works that way and why it can't be the other way around. I've been trying to live my life as told without asking, but I always end up carrying a heavy load on my shoulder. In other words, life is indeed complicated and I suck at dealing with it.
And that message has brought me to this conversation I had with a friend a few days ago. As she was trying to take a peek of my life and got perplexed with how I deal with things, she gave me pieces of advice which were already a mantra to me. It was quite an argument with laughter in between. Then, she eventually asked, "How can we understand you if you don't explain? What do you really want to happen?" Those questions struck me. Honestly, I couldn't utter any word that time. I almost got teary-eyed. I paused, took a deep breath and knocked the conversation off by saying that I don't know.
I actually know the answer to the first question. It's just that, I want my lips to be sealed at that moment. That is why, silence is the best answer to every question. As for the second one, I'm still quite unsure, whether I want them to understand me for who I am, or just leave everything as is.
My [other] friend was right in telling me that I am being misunderstood. I also feel the same way towards them. I don't understand why everything works that way and why it can't be the other way around. I've been trying to live my life as told without asking, but I always end up carrying a heavy load on my shoulder. In other words, life is indeed complicated and I suck at dealing with it.