I Wonder Where I'll Go From Here

[damselburnout]

I'm so... I don't know anymore. I hate being lectured about everything, especially about school, because everything they say is right. I don't know what I want anymore. Have I ever known anyway?

I know I want him because his love keeps me healthy. I learned in psych today that love or just being with someone that makes you happy and not stressed can keep you from being sick. I haven't been sick in sooo long, trust. He makes me happy. What's sad is that he's constantly on my mind. Tuesdays and Thursdays I can't turn away and go home. Instead I go home to him. I want to be like him. I want to show him that I don't need him as much as he doesn't need me. That I don't need to call everyday like how I use to, or come over like I always do. I want him to see that I'm independent and not dependent on him anymore. I want him to see that I'm not as attatched as I've shown myself to be. He's strong. I can be strong, too. He's independent. I can be that as well. He doesn't need me as much as I need him, so I can let go...

As of this time next year I will be single, or so he says. Haha, just kidding, love!