Insanity
Its graet that instead of doing my lesson plan for my demo lesson, i get drunk by myself. If you were here, you would have seen me on my deck drinking, reciting my lesson, and talking to the stars. I was having a nice conversation with about 6 stars until my mother interupted us. Its nice tearing myself to shreads then building myself back up. Almost like self pity, but i was fully aware of what i was doing, At any rate, i felt better at the end. Still lonely as all hell, but one tiny speck better then what i was before. God i need a good car so i can see friends. It sucks being up north and no one else is up here. With school out, everyone went back home and it isnt up here fuck it.