for you, the reader
i need to slow down a bit. i'm excitable(can i get a "duh!" brothers and sisters?) and that sometimes isn't the best thing. i've had epiphany after epiphany since new years eve afternoon, and i've just got to write some out here, for you, the reader. my mom has always told me to relax. people are always freaking telling me to relax. i ALWAYS say, "I AM!"
bullpucky.
not but a year ago, i realized i forced issues and situations to keep control. i forced issues to keep people from getting close. now that i've rerealized this, i'm going to try and actually relax. i don't have to close my heart, i just need to stop trying to force things into and out of it.
i received some good council recently with regards to all this. i've been encouraged to step out of situations for a moment and ask myself, "is what i'm saying productive? is how i'm acting actually relaxed or on impulse?" for i now see, "i'm just intense/passionate," is a lame way of saying, "i'm out of control and i don't care who it hurts or bothers, or that i'm totally being misunderstood."
so i've said all this to say to you, the reader. you may or may not know me. you may or may not be my friend. rather than force you to know/like me by saying:
"i have to be here for you. you must use me as a friend. i am incomplete unless i am being friendly and you are not my friend unless you are willing to let me do for you what i think you need..."
may i say this:
if you need someone, you can call on me. otherwise, i'll assume you are ok. =]
bullpucky.
not but a year ago, i realized i forced issues and situations to keep control. i forced issues to keep people from getting close. now that i've rerealized this, i'm going to try and actually relax. i don't have to close my heart, i just need to stop trying to force things into and out of it.
i received some good council recently with regards to all this. i've been encouraged to step out of situations for a moment and ask myself, "is what i'm saying productive? is how i'm acting actually relaxed or on impulse?" for i now see, "i'm just intense/passionate," is a lame way of saying, "i'm out of control and i don't care who it hurts or bothers, or that i'm totally being misunderstood."
so i've said all this to say to you, the reader. you may or may not know me. you may or may not be my friend. rather than force you to know/like me by saying:
"i have to be here for you. you must use me as a friend. i am incomplete unless i am being friendly and you are not my friend unless you are willing to let me do for you what i think you need..."
may i say this:
if you need someone, you can call on me. otherwise, i'll assume you are ok. =]