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I was in Bellin Psych for about nine hours on Friday. Thankfully they let me go back home because I promised to come back if I wanted to/did something stupid. So for now I am back on Lithium and cannot work.
This what I typed up for a different site:
Yeah, I checked myself in to the psych ward in the afternoon, but left around 9-ish because I promised to come back if I felt depressed enough to hurt myself again/kill myself. The psychiatrist (not the one I see) I talked to said that because of how much I was working and my sleep getting messed up, it brought on the depression and put my bipolar into full swing. She also told me that when I tell myself that I'm useless, a failure, I should kill myself, and hurt myself it's obviously not helping myself. But after a while of letting it go on, I would have been hearing an outside voice (other than mine) telling me the same things and I would have started seeing things. So pretty much I would've become schizophrenic.
Thank God I went in. I got put back on Lithium to get the depression under control quick and I go for a check up on Wednesday with my psychiatrist. I honestly felt like I was going crazy, but I feel a shit ton better knowing I'm not. It just kinda sucks that until Wednesday for sure, I need to be babysat and I can't work until I get the okay from my psychiatrist.
I am off of work this weekend again too. Hooray.
Silver and Cold by AFI
I, I came here by day,
but I left here in darkness
and found you, found you on the way.
Now, it is silver and silent.
It is silver and cold.
You in somber resplendence,
I hold...
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one.
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into me
oh, my beautiful one.
Light, like the flutter of wings,
feel your hollow voice rushing
into me as you're longing to sing.
So I,I will paint you in silver.
I will wrap you in cold.
I will lift up your voice as I sink.
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into me
Cold in life's throes.
I'll fall asleep for you.
Cold in life's throes.
I only ask you turn away.
Cold in life's throes.
I'll fall asleep for you.
Cold in life's throes
I only ask you turn
as they seep into me,
oh, my beautiful one, now...
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one.
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into me
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into...
Your sins into me
Oh my beautiful one!
The current song I'm stuck on...
This what I typed up for a different site:
Yeah, I checked myself in to the psych ward in the afternoon, but left around 9-ish because I promised to come back if I felt depressed enough to hurt myself again/kill myself. The psychiatrist (not the one I see) I talked to said that because of how much I was working and my sleep getting messed up, it brought on the depression and put my bipolar into full swing. She also told me that when I tell myself that I'm useless, a failure, I should kill myself, and hurt myself it's obviously not helping myself. But after a while of letting it go on, I would have been hearing an outside voice (other than mine) telling me the same things and I would have started seeing things. So pretty much I would've become schizophrenic.
Thank God I went in. I got put back on Lithium to get the depression under control quick and I go for a check up on Wednesday with my psychiatrist. I honestly felt like I was going crazy, but I feel a shit ton better knowing I'm not. It just kinda sucks that until Wednesday for sure, I need to be babysat and I can't work until I get the okay from my psychiatrist.
I am off of work this weekend again too. Hooray.
Silver and Cold by AFI
I, I came here by day,
but I left here in darkness
and found you, found you on the way.
Now, it is silver and silent.
It is silver and cold.
You in somber resplendence,
I hold...
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one.
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into me
oh, my beautiful one.
Light, like the flutter of wings,
feel your hollow voice rushing
into me as you're longing to sing.
So I,I will paint you in silver.
I will wrap you in cold.
I will lift up your voice as I sink.
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into me
Cold in life's throes.
I'll fall asleep for you.
Cold in life's throes.
I only ask you turn away.
Cold in life's throes.
I'll fall asleep for you.
Cold in life's throes
I only ask you turn
as they seep into me,
oh, my beautiful one, now...
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one.
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into me
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me.
As a rapturous voice escapes
I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness.
Your sins into me,
Your sins into...
Your sins into me
Oh my beautiful one!
The current song I'm stuck on...